everything in it's right time
snow... on may 16. this is ridiculous! but i'm hoping my positive thinking turns this around. although i'm sitting at the coffee shoppe clutching a steaming cup of joe, i am in capris and flip flops. keep dreaming of warmth... and in one week, i will be hanging in warm California with my twin doing things that twins do. the trip to london this spring got my travel bug activated once again. good thing work allows me to get out of the office every now and then. and good thing i have fun places in my territory. i'm actually quite excited to visit LA for the first time. and i'm pretty sure that my visit to San Fran last time was not all it could've been. yay!
don't be so scared of what you don't know
after years, i have finally said it out loud. i've acknowledged something that many close to me have speculated. well, i've at least acknowledged that the idea may be the reason i am the way i am. last week, i found myself crying while watching a t.v. show because of the friendships and relationships that the characters had. ones that i wished i could have. understanding it was only a show, it was hollywood, it still makes you long for something like that. or long for it back, because i thought i had that once.it all comes back to this admittance. now comes the deliberation... what to do. there's that fear of doing anything and the potential for things to change positively or negatively. or leave things as they are, accept not knowing and move on...