in day lights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee

during this switching of our product from one version to another, i have once again become astonished with how i got my life to where it is right now... there are all but three of the entire team at work right now. it is 11:30 pm on a friday night. lots of actual work going on. people diligently dedicated to this thing being successful. if you were to look at me during my college years, you would never think that my first real-i-don't-live-with-my-parents-anymore job would be with a technology development company and that i would be a hands-on, teaching/learning/fixing part of this team, ...i or anyone else who knew me then would think you were smoking some sort of narcotic.

this part of my life has ABSOLUTELY been the best thing i could've chosen. at times, i was completely unsure about the decision. but without a doubt, especially going through tonight, this has been a wonderful path for me!

the one thing i would change right now is the box under my desk that i use as my foot-rest. cardboard office depot moving boxes aren't really stable foot-rest material. just as an FYI to all of you who are looking for foot-rest options.

OOOOoooh, we're half way there

a few people have ruined good things for me. a former friend came to visit and not only annoyed the shit out of me the entire week and a half that he stayed at my house, but also insisted on listening to any and all bon jovi music that any juke box would play. i can't listen to bon jovi without feeling like there are fingernails being dragged down a chalk board.... and he and i no longer speak.

my most recent boss ruined the words "gang" and "ping".... not that they were particularly high up on my used words list. but now i want to punch people that use these two words right in the face. for example: "gang, i'm going to be working from home again today for the 4th day in a row this week. ping me on skype chat if you'd like to interact with me." (insert punch to the face here)


....free movie tonight. we're going to see the other boleyn girl. tomorrow is a hollybean night and then back to work to do the switch from version 2 to version 3..... perhaps and all night process. saturday is the baby shower and mom in town. going to my fair lady at the orpheum with mom and her cousin. and sunday, i'm anticipating breakfast with mom and the rest of the day sleeping! i'm exhausted already

but! these kinds of things make days go fast, right? happy almost weekend!

and when he died, all he left us was a loan

apparently, if i show up to work in a dress, i MUST have a date. even my best friend asked me why i was wearing a dress. really?! i need to justify a dress?

patience is a virtue. this week has been proving that i have mucho patience. a lot of non-tech users coming to learn from the Con! and the Con is teaching :) ...and learning. i've learned some html this past week. couldn't ever figure out how to link things in comments on blogs. oh, but i have learneth!

since the lightening of the staff last monday, i'm interested to see the differences in vision between the management. especially in what opinions of my position are. i've found to be that person who knows a little or a lot about everything.... not everything about everything, but SOME of everything. and i think that's not a bad place to be.

Once again, I’ve proven to be the ‘bad’ friend. Just like valentine’s day isn’t as sweet without people who aren’t in love (like me), good friends aren’t as good without bad friends (like me). I have an awkward way of saying the wrong things at the wrong time. ..pointing out the worst things in peoples lives at the exact worst time. It’s not an intentional thing. I just amn’t good at shutting my mouth and thinking before I speak (or type). If it’s a curse, I’m screwed. If it’s just my own compulsiveness, I AM working on correcting it.

i have lately been exhausted, but i can not figure out how to get more sleep. another thing i need to work on...

hug him, hug him, squeeze him tight

the office is one less. and less tense. we're moving to a load of wonderful-ness. new release to be published this weekend, i believe. they've actually stopped telling me things 'cuz i'm a blabber. the thing that they don't realize is that when someone tells me it's a secret, i don't really tell anyone... except my best friend and maybe my mom.

this past weekend was full of laughter, friends and family. the more i think of it, i am very happy i moved home for a year and a half after graduation. it definitely makes going home for vacations and weekends much more enjoyable.

this coming weekend is going to be full. a holly night on friday, mary's baby shower for the day on saturday and then saturday night will be hanging with my mom and some cousins. a night of food, drinks and theater. should be fabulous! i can no wait until friday afternoon! whoop.

life is a highway, i'm gonna ride it ... all night long

wishing ill will on others, i believe, is bad for your karma. therefore, i just DON'T DO IT!

today may have made my day...month...i'm thinking it may be year. i kept yelling into the phone, "don't lie, don't lie to me!"

i hope your monday was good too!

with so many people in my life, why do i worry about one?

just saw my baby sister. i saw her a month ago. she's having a rough time right now. she's coaching volleyball. she's the junior coach to (pretty much) the rest of this year's varsity volleyball team. and they're not respecting her. the actual coach had a long talk with me about the situation... how it's hurting her that the girls are doing this to their coach and their friend. my sister is much more sensitive than i am. i'm the more confident hard-ass. grace cries when people look at her funny. and it is breaking my heart.

i'm really glad that i'm going home next weekend so that we can have some good sister time! but i'm really hurting that i'm not closer so that we could have that sister time tomorrow when she's going to need it the most. i really am missing my sister.

looking out across the sea, it's finally dawned on me

i was watching stranger than fiction ... and i had an epiphany. i want to learn to play the guitar.

tell me something good. tell me that you like it, yeah

weekends are supposed to be for relaxing, catching up on friendships and housework, going out or staying in. normal people don't want the weekend to ever end. recently, i've not wanted anything on the weekend except for monday to come.

there has been a recent weekend trend... 6 weekends in a row of family.

tomorrow's my most hated holiday. i think i'm just cynical and/or jealous. without people like me, the day wouldn't be as special for you love-birds. there'd be no one to flaunt your love to... or peoples noses to rub in it.

i did have a boy buy me lunch yesterday. too bad it was just my married co-worker who feels bad for me. and he bought another dude's too.

excitement in my life is around the corner, i can feel it....

well they say the sky's the limit, and to me that's really true

if it's a special occasion, i am all about celebrating. we're going up to st. cloud for my cousin's birthday...getting a hotel and going out. just for a change of scenery. her friend and i were hoping for a chicago trip, but that didn't fly. so, we're compromising.... i know what you're thinking - chicago vs. st. cloud, really? yes really.

but in celebrating, i'm always trying to find cheap ways of expensive fun. ie: a fun night out with little to no cost. so, we'll hit up the drink specials, but i was hoping for free. draw attention to us. pretend bach party...make money so not having to use our own... pretend 21st birthday or golden birthday... something! but alas, i think my cousin is not into that kind of fun and maybe a little boring. now i'm not sure it's because she actually is, or if i just had those kinds of friends all through my life...the kind that were up for anything.

i mean, really... i went with 4 girlfriends to my senior prom as whorish pop stars. i've done more than 1 pretend bachelorette party just for free drinks and the pure fun. we always had theme birthday nights... costumes, boas, etc. i think it also had to do with the fact that my girls and i were single most of our fun nights together (if not all of them).

my cousin, on the other hand, has been dating the same guy for at least 8 years. i'm concerned about my sister for this reason. 3 years with the same dude, she's 18. accepting at a college that is 1/2 way between his college and home.

perhaps i'm wrong in that thinking. perhaps it's because i had so much fun being single throughout college. and am sad for those who did not/ will not have that same fun. but i guess, to each their own, right? i really need to remember that.

so tomorrow night, no fun stuff, no tiaras, no shots, no one pretending to get hitched.... just going out.

and dirt cake!