I am who I am...

and loose the argument in the cable car

to all of those who are/were/wish to be residents of the United States, HAPPY THANKSGIVING! for some of you on the other side of the earth, this day is partially over. my feasting hasn't started yet, but the thanksgiving spirit is definately flowing in this joint. between accidents and health related stuff that our office has dealt with since day one, we really are thankful for the things that we've got. i think this is the first time in all my years that i've truly felt this way.

to all of my friends, i am thankful for you. actually, it goes beyond just those that i consider my friends. i am thankful for everyone that has been part of my life. there has been shit, but i wouldn't have wanted anything differently that it's been. it's one of those things that you sit down and think - everything that hasn't gone just the way i've wanted has actually been a blessing in disguise.

even the small things like my ever expanding choices for food. i took everyone in the office's hummus virginity today. not a one of them had ever had it before... none that i work with on a daily basis, anyway. just small things like that that make me smile and make me say thank you to all of you that have been part of my life journey.

its just about 5 o'clock and time for me to sign out. but thank you... i am thankful for you. make sure you remember who and what you are thankful for on this thursday that we celebrate what we have in the U.S of A.

posted by Connie Mia @ 4:48 PM 0 Comments

i would've stayed up with you all night had i known how to save a life

if you choose to have more than one job, at least one of those should be for pure enjoyment. i am not receiving a fair enough amount of enjoyment from the job that should be giving it the most. i need someone other than leigh to tell me that i should be done. just tell me.

sometimes, i wish i had one of those remotes that adam sandler has in "click". i wish i could just fast-forward through the next 6 months. by then i'll be 24 and have things a little more figured out. please, tell me that i'll have things more figured out. please.

is your computer broken? it's been over a month now. i will try snail mail.

posted by Connie Mia @ 10:21 PM 3 Comments

you break the mold as you're running through the tolls

what an inspiring week.

first of all, i'm searching. and that's all i have to say about that.

secondly, when you watch someone go through as much a Kristin has, you feel small and hopeless, almost like, compared to what she's going through, what's happening to you doesn't count as anything.

ugh, !!! i think we all simply take our health for granted. and when i have to write what i'm thankful for and i write "my health" .... i shouldn't feel bad because i have mine and one of my co-workers doesn't... or two of them, for that matter. i'll help you through whatever you're going through. i'll be there for you.

tonight was brian's benefit...after his accident. brian, not my brother, but the editor for the paper i work at, got broadsided a few months ago, and this is the benefit of being part of a small community. everyone wants to help and will hold large gatherings with all dollars spent going straight to the person(s) in need. 'twas a fun night. i came home with some good loot.

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it's only been two days, and i know she makes copies. but i must say that only after two days, i'm missing walking past him, the challenge of not looking at him as i walk past time after time. it's sometimes the highlight of the day. just knowing that maybe when you're not looking at him, he's looking at you , even though you know he probably isn't. and he'll be gone for some time. it's hard not looking. ..... and when you do look, and he's not there, it's hard knowing you have 12 days to go. does that make you think you love that person, or is it just a side-effect of knowing someone since you were both in the 7th grade... for 11 years? i'm not entirely sure. either way, it makes searching more difficult. i wish my heart didn't have any strings attached,, that i was the cold-hearted bastard most think i am. oh, how i wish that.

but i will just have to deal.. and search, not care what the possibilities COULD be... an just live life, let it be what it will be.
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mary's corner: tom and katie are getting married this weekend in italy... other than that, i don't have patience of to look anything else up for you ... next one will be better! PROMISE!

posted by Connie Mia @ 11:50 PM 0 Comments

madison 3

ahh, a nice vaca - and a very short entry about it.

invited to madison by e.c. aiesecers... only knowing 2 of them and not having a clue as to who was actually still in madison, i was ready for a little adventure. parents thought a less than 24 hour trip for no good reason was completely crazy, but i headed by my lonesome anyway.

despite the 2 shishas i knocked over, i had a completely enjoyable time and can't wait for burb's final birthday in madison on the eve of december 15! even after trying to cut ties from the org, aiesec still has my heart. completely. or at least my homies do. i miss the conferences - because of the people and crazy fun we all had .... especially the rowdie regioners.

i didn't realize how much i really missed you guys. wish i could see you more often. who knows, maybe one day, i will.

posted by Connie Mia @ 1:24 PM 2 Comments

madison 6

posted by Connie Mia @ 1:17 PM 0 Comments

madison8

posted by Connie Mia @ 1:08 PM 0 Comments

finally it has happened to me right in front of my face and i just cannot hide it

after all these years of wondering, the mystery of what to call it has come clear to all. thank you, grey's anatomy, for clearing up the wonderment surrounding uteri vs uteruses. uteruses it will be. thank you.

and good luck with that.

posted by Connie Mia @ 9:21 PM 1 Comments

dre-e-e-e-eam, dream dream dream...

i can understand what ticked her off about that post... not just the fact that it was about her, but also the title of it. the title had nothing to do with how i thought about her prior to tonight, 'twas simply a song that we were singing all night prior to that particular post. that being said....

wow.

that just about sums up tonight. i can't believe she actually flipped out... on me... at a bar... with witnesses. oh, and don't think that if you flip out at me in a bar with witnesses, that the witness that was sitting right next to me, getting me through my tough day, didn't help me jot down notes after you left.

and remember that i do realize that you may read my blog...

this may seem 3rd grade to some of you, but it's the excitement in my life, so bear with me :)

note: i'm not naming names.

points of the flip out:
- she NEEDED me to know that she never slept with him.
i work with one of his best friends, i know what base you got to. and according to the slang in the college town of st. cloud, the term "screwed around with" doesn't necessarily mean "screwed".

- she doesn't care what i think
but ironically needed me to know specific details including whether or not they slept together.

- she stuck up for me for the last few months
i'm not really sure what for.... didn't really find turning and walking away from situations that would ultimately hurt me, something that needed defending....

- she didn't go behind my back for his number... she did it while i was standing right there, and he gave it to her.
all i have to say to this is "saj baldwin".

- i made no effort to show interest in him and so how was she to know that i liked him.
i do believe that the whole purpose of inviting them to play darts with us that night was because i expressed interest (at least to my friend who got his number right in front of me from him later that night while i was trying to beat down the sleazy cop that kept hitting on me) in him.

i must say: very brave of you to lash out at me while standing 2 feet from the door so you could run away when you were done. that took balls.

make as many copies as you'd like. :)



for all of you that sat through that, courageous!


it was a very tough day at work and i'm ever so grateful that leigh was able to have a few with me tonight. she's such a trooper and a good friend.

posted by Connie Mia @ 9:58 PM 0 Comments

i'm so excited

going to madison this weekend to meet up with aiesec ooo-claire and madison. yay. one night only and i can't wait!

posted by Connie Mia @ 8:24 AM 0 Comments