you're a crazy bitch
so, i feel kinda bad about tonight. i hate the look of hurt or disappointment on someone's face. I HATE ITlike, i'd rather you place my hand on a red-hot burner than see someone that looks like they hurt. but i made someone look like that tonight. when someone comes up to you and says "are you going to be staying around for a while, having a few, cuz i haven't seen you guys in a while" and you respond with "yeah, there's probably a reason for that".... well, it's probably not so nice. but it also is the truth. and i'm not one to lie to make someone feel good about theirself. i tell it like it isi am who i am....i am weighing, however, the amount of hurt that this girl put me through.... "she's my friend, she won't care {that i totally went behind her back and got the phone number of a guy she clearly expressed interest in and screwed around with him} because all she wants is the best for us". well, according to the woman bible, this is one of the five top sins of girl-friends. and then when i clearly was out with a guy and i offer a futon for him to sleep on instead of traveling 20 miles and waking up the next morn in a field and not remembering how you got there, she invites herself and ends up making out with him in my parent's house..... really gives you a chance to develop a relationship with someone. this is what my mom described "two-faced" as being.... being kind and nice to your face, but going and doing something that really hurts that same person that was kinda and nice to my face. it's disgusting.
heaven only knows
who really knows? but word on the street is that last week, on October 17th when the people-o-meter for the united states rolled over to 300,000,000, little miss 300,000,000 was born in MEDFORD WISCONSIN. no shit. a little girl named kacie jo. how cool is that?
when you think tim mcgraw, i hope you think of me
you never really realize how short is until something happens. when you look around and realize that people really don't live forever. when one of your friends and confidants gets diagnosed with breast cancer for the second time in her life.. and she's only 38. yeah, we joke and try to make light, because as she says, ...it's not going to make it go away if you're sad. but being this situation hath arisen in the last week AND it's breast cancer awareness month... be safe, check things out, love one another.i'm working on my halloween costume...s. most of you've seen the ragedy ann gig i sport and i will again this year... because it'll be new to this northern crowd. and staying close to my roots, i'm going to attempt to pull off a witch. i don't quite understand those people who buy their entire costume as a set. spend a $100 or more on a set. i love the thrill of having to shop around to find the right pieces to get the perfect costume..... still working on the final touches of the witch costume. oh how i wish there were a SAVERS in medford. st. vinny's just isn't the same.i miss my friends... all of you that i haven't been good with keeping in touch... yeah, you. i wish i had some of you near me!! need a rowdie reunion sometime soon. stunt cock, i'm counting on you.first snow of the year, today. it's going to be one of THOSE winters.
she's the lady in red when everyone else is wearing tan
so, it's been a while since i've done an update on life in medford wisconsin. and that probably about sums it up.truth is, it's not so bad when you look at it as a whole. but when i put a magnifying glass to everything and compare it to everything that i've wanted for my life to be (since college), it isn't that great. i'm still working at the restaurant - bartending. i love that job simply because i get to run my "sailor mouth", wear suggestive clothing (children friendly of course) and have a free beer or two at the end of the night. the Star News is going well. every day i'm learning something new. it's still a challenge and there are days that i go home and just want to sit and cry. but i learn from all the experiences that put me in that state. as for the personal life, well, there isn't much to say. i'm still holding my tongue while teaching religious classes (still blows my mind that i got roped into it). parents are still driving me crazy. my mom has recently started stealing my clothes if she finds them laying on my floor. so every now and then i can't find that shirt that i really want to wear. but it's still beating rent and utilities. friends are growing. i've been meeting some of the medford transplants. some really cool ones - mostly brought here by our stellar school system and need for management at the numerous factories. i've been realizing, though, that some friends are true and good to have around at all times. they're there for you through thick and thin. and then there are those ones who are good for a few drinks and a discussion about religion or politics, but other than that, they aren't worth a whole lot to your personal self. it's all part of the learning process. it's life, and you don't get to decide the hand you're dealt. you just have to deal with your cards when you pick them up.signing off from a beautiful sunny Medford, Wisconsin, USA. until next time. seeyalayder
