I am who I am...

we're free, yeah yeah, catch me if you can

working at a small town newspaper is quite an adventure. the conversation that flows through this place ranges from views on homosexuality, "i like big butts and i can not lie", whether or not it is right for the DA to come here to talk about what the newspaper writes while on taxpayer dollars, how many times a day it is appropriate to tell your loved ones that you love them, ex's, moving out of the house, how men love when their women wear camo (up here, anyway)... etc, etc.... pretty much, you can use your imagination and we've talked about it. which is great.

i am quite disappointed with the people's views of the literal interpretation of the bible when it come to homosexuality but chosing to ignore the bible's literal interpretation when it comes to things like... eating shellfish, working on the sabbath, etc. it's quite an issue in this area right now. i just wish that more around here people knew, i mean actually KNEW, people who don't have the choice to be gay or straight. i just think it's crazy how many vox pops there are being placed over this issue. probably because it is such a non-issue for me. rock on, people. be yourselves. be comfortable with who you are and quit worrying about everyone else.

that said, this week has been quite a roller coaster. ups and downs within the fam. grandpa went to get a tripple by-pass surgery, ended up with a quadruple by-pass. it's so scary knowing that as you're driving around, doing your job, the someone you love could be dying.

on a much happier note, gracie lulu earned the title of captain today. she's a junior on the varsity volleyball team and played in the second most games of all returning players this year. it's pretty cool. i'm very proud of her.

posted by Connie Mia @ 2:23 PM 4 Comments

i want everyone to know that you were mine and no one elses

if you'll be dancing in the streets of my dear saint of water vapor this weekend, you just might see me dancing next to you. it'll be the first time back there since january. mainly to say au revoir to my dearest mary and her hubby, but also to see some homies that i've missed a lot in the past few months.

quick update on the job sit: i like it. it is one of those jobs that you know you won't have forever, simply because there's not a whole lot of working up room. but i definitely haven't mastered it yet, so i'll stay a while longer. it's still a challenge as to figuring out what each of my almost 600 accounts prefers when it comes to sizes, styles, contact, etc... this, as i hope is the same with every other job that i will have, will be my job until it becomes boring. i'm still challenged.

we've decided (my boss and another girl i really like) that tomorrow will be my "silent" day in the office. i sing a lot there.... pissing off two girls. one because i upstage her and the other because, well, i think she's just a pissed off person. so tomorrow i will creep both them out by not saying a word. i'm really good at the silent treatment if someone dares me to be. i've been dared.

posted by Connie Mia @ 7:44 PM 0 Comments

exhibit 1

these posts are dedicated to a mrs. taha.

for all y'all that have seen or (god help you) ridden in my other beast that i still own, rest easy that i now have keyless entry. i feel much safer in this bute than i ever did in Welch. i think this one will suit me for a while. ironically it's a taurus. and so am i.

and declan, your snide comment, already, is not appreciated.

posted by Connie Mia @ 7:44 PM 1 Comments

exhibit 2

the hair turned a darker hue... today it also got cut. two things that happen not so often for me, but now that i'm loaded, will be happening more frequently... hooray.

posted by Connie Mia @ 7:41 PM 1 Comments

my brains are fried, i'm frustrated, no place to hide

things have always been pretty easy for me. i've always been quick to fall into a groove. but this time around, i don't know what's going on. perhaps there are too many things that are going on that i can't wrap my brain around them. i severely need to make a list. and i have been. but the lists are so freaking long that they don't even really matter. organization will be key. i'm a field sales person and i left the office all of ONCE today for 5 mins and the customer wasn't there so i came right back and continued to look through files. it makes my day seem unproductive. hopefully these unproductive days are just stepping stones to kicking some major ass. all i really want to do is blow the numbers so far out of the water that they don't know how they survived without me.

we'll see how that goes.

posted by Connie Mia @ 9:12 PM 0 Comments

Let my hair down and bleach it blonde, Turn the ringer off and the engine on

i dyed my hair and bought a car.

posted by Connie Mia @ 10:45 PM 1 Comments

that one horse town in my rear view was gonna be my whole world

when i opened my email this evening, i saw something from jillo that was worth talking about. some student travel website wants students to write about why they travel. for me, this one kind of seems like a no-brainer. however, when i look at people who surround me from day to day, perhaps it isn't such.

for me, it isn't a cut and dry type of thing. i've taken many trips for many different reasons, some that don't make sense now. why do i travel? well, to get to some place else. i enjoy relating to many different kinds of people. as i work in this new job, i find it a refreshing expereince to talk to someone who wasn't born and raised in this community that i live in (as i have been). or, if they are from here, talking about people they've met and places that they've been can be just as rewarding.

at least once, i've gotten on an airplane to see if that person at the destination felt the same way about me as i did about them. at least once, that person didn't feel the way i did about them. however, i find sometimes in those situations, you can find different people who feel about you the way that you don't about them. i've traveled to get my heart broken.

at least once, i've traveled great distances hoping that a future would be waiting for me. instead i've found only memories.

i've traveled to see old friends and to meet new ones. sometimes i wish i was back in denver trying to choke down vodka soaked cherries and giggle at youssef and the guy with the broken down car. i miss you guys.

traveling takes me to rekindle friendships and keep strong friendfires burning. short distances or long ones can make all the difference in the world to the souls of girlfriends. even an hour lunch while someone's in the country and you both have to travel in order to receive the hug that's waiting. traveling is worth the sacrifice and stress, sometimes. to catch a friend that lives 12 time zones away, traveling can be priceless.

i've traveled to simply experience... to people watch. there's a reason that in a single 3 night trip, i only slept 4 hours total. it's taking in the places and people at all hours, drinking in all aspects of the destination.

in my travels, so many truly amazing things have happened to me that all i can do is simply smile at the amazing memories flowing through my head. although some were lone travels, just for me, the majority of the happy thoughts from travels are because when i was a sophomore in college, my roommate and the crazy girl downstairs wouldn't shut up about this thing they were in to. they wouldn't shut up so much that i had to try it out. and i must say, it was addictive. so, thank you two for addicting me to aiesec and all its baggage.

mary always told me that without it, i wouldn't be boring, but i sure as hell would be bored.

so, why do i travel? mostly for me. for aiesec and its peeps. but mostly for me.

posted by Connie Mia @ 8:25 PM 4 Comments