Don't worry, baby.
Life and death situations are not funny. we all have to face death sooner or later. Sofia may be staring it in the face. lets all help her ward it off, help her have a chance at a long and healthy future!
hey yah yah that summer song
most profound statement made last night, or perhaps the most profound one of my whole life:-the ice cubes are in the freezer.
Tongue tied and twisted are all my memories
she's leaving the place where we spent 3 fabulous years together. tonight is the last. i keep not thinking about it. on purpose. she's always gone anyway. visiting people, on vacations. what's going to change? ... not much, to begin with. but i do know that those impromptu "you still have a discount?" lunches will be missed. and the "i'm almost done, bring me a change of clothes and we'll have a beer" calls will be missed. pampering ourselves, the exquisite taste we share in footwear. the random shit that happens when we're together (ie: half a shelf falling at target while retrieving dt. coke.. promptly turning and walking away as if nothing happened).. stuff like that will be missed.
i am fearful. of things that are yet unknown. i'm not sure if i feel like i need to protect her more because she's my friend, or because, perhaps she's more like my sister. friends forever? god, i hope so. i don't know if i could've picked a better random person to live with us sophomore year. turns out, the random became the best. who would've known.
so tonight, high spirits, both emotionally and beverage-wise. and then tomorrow, ... well, it'll come all too quickly. moving away has always been easier than being left behind. and here i am, yet again, being left behind.
i love you, and will miss you more than you'll ever be able to imagine.
Can I look into the faces that I meet, Can I get my punk-ass off the street?
pink is the color for the day. will be spending most of it with her highness, Lady Pink, and then meeting up with the other two "Pink Ladies". one last hurrah as the 4 of us. quite sad actually, but i'm sure we'll go out on a silly, energetic high.must complete these marketing materials first. pretty excited with how they're turning out. jim turned old today... wish him a good one.
That was a crazy game of poker
cracked out my ol' subway map this morning. was showing the roommate where she needs to go when they drive to NYC. looking back, it makes me giggle at how excited for them i am. telling them which trains to take to get to wherever. she wants to go to Peeps, but i think she's going to end up saving that for when i live there and we can go together. we realized that one day, she's going to live in Cali, and i'm going to live in NYC.... made plans to meet for a weekend in Vegas. it'll freak her boyfriend out (who happens to be my other roommate at the moment). i'm her bad influence and he hates it when i force her to come out with me. haha, i think i'm pretty much everyone's bad influence. ---thoroughly enjoying this past month, although its been tough at moments with some of my favorite people leaving. but then again, i've re-connected with quite a few people and especially with my long time love affair.completely looking forward to next month and hoping to god that we (St. Cloud) can figure out how to get to this conference SOON. for a while, i was telling myself that i didn't care, that it didn't matter if i was there, but now that its staring me in the face, that i know we have the money to get there, its just a matter of getting it to the correct places in time, i will be completely devistated if we can't get us there. plus, i've never been to colorado (unless you count my 3 hour lay-over at the denver airport...which is freaking huge and fabulous). so, i'd love to go see what the insides of their hotels are like.that's the one thing that i always find humorous about aiesec conferences. i tell people that i've been to all these places, but really, i've only been to hotels that happen to be located in these places. no matter... i go to see people and make a difference, not for the touristy shit. netto-- i want to see your backyard when i'm there!
thanks girls!
thanks girls!
Originally uploaded by conniemg6.a night out... i think. first time out in minneapolis. 'twas a good one as far as i know. good people, music, abusing my phone again. every now and then i need to escape st. cloud. and now i have an escape destination. thanks girlies, sometime soon we must repeat... perhaps a few modifications.
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye
adios mes ami! will see you soon, i hope. can't let y'all go, must keep in touch! uber fun stuff happened to me yesterday, all in the form of mail. one key note is that i pick my mail up from the apartment that i lived in last school year and will again for this fall about once ever 2 weeks. therefore i may not have received all this stuff on the same day, however, it came to ME all in one day.-bachelorette party invite-wedding shower invite-wedding invite-another wedding invite (people in love kinda make me sick, but that's a whole other issue)-tax refund-wedding thank-you and pictures-MY PASSPORT!!!!!!!!!-only one billsee, 'twas quite exciting, doncha think?
more randomness from me!
does anyone that is coming to SSC 2005 in Denver have a pair of
LEDERHOSEN? or if you know of someone that does that could send them with you/someone to SSC in Denver?
(c:
its 3am i must be lonely
thanks for the drunk-dial!!! first one EVER from a foreign country, but i'm sure it won't be the last. have been informed that i can't ever quit the sauce... apparently the messages i leave when on the sauce are quite entertaining. another incentive not to give it up is the shirt my roommate promised me ("AA is for quitters").
and dontcha come back no more, no more, no more, no more
work part one wasn't so bad. i was too busy to think about how tired i was... and forgot that i was supposed to be a hurtin' unit. but now, i'm at work part two. and i have time to think... which is bad. right now, i think i am very very tired. i get off work at 8 tonight and i do believe that i will be sleeping by 8.30!
i wanna know, have you ever seen the rain?
work's gonna be a bitch today. hydration is key. poor, poor people who come in for lunch today. i really feel bad for them.
i'm dreaming of you tonight
but i would really, really like to stop.
i'm not sure why i'm dreaming of you, or have been for the past week. its kinda creeping me out. come to think of it, last night, quite a few of you were in my dreams, which is creepy too. but YOU, that ONE, you keep coming back. can you please stop?
i'll bet you a drink or two that i can make you put that lampshade on your head
while looking through some pictures today, one in particular, i got to wondering. i'd like to take an unoffical poll:
how many flights amongst all you readers have been NOT remembered because of alcohol and/or all-nighters?
--i'm going to start things off with my whopping 2. (ironically, both flights were departures from la guardia)
come rain or come shine
i think i'm the only person in the whole united states that hasn't received their tax return yet. seriously...checked on it today, thinking that perhaps the touched roommate that did mine and supposidly mailed them screwed something up majorly, however, records show that it finally was finished processing TODAY. christ! 3 months? that's pseudo rediculous...(i'm not going to mention that it was sent in on the last possible day to send them in)
got word yesterday that one of my good friends is coming in september from england. show him how midwestern college life is done. man, i love visitors!
at work, we use accuradio for our listening pleasure. they like to play a lot of michael buble on my favorite station. he rocks my world. if you watch TV at all, he's on the new starbucks commercial. the one that the lady goes into the fridge at work, pulls out a starbucks something or other and then every man that she sees while she's sipping on that something or other is this one guy singing to her (at the end she thinks he hands her a rose, when actually she pulled one out of the floral arrangement that the delivery guy is holding). that one guy that's singing to her is michael buble. (sigh).
almost done with my second book for the summer. i have one more lined up, but am thinking that i'll have time for more. to avoid reading the bell jar for the 6th summer in a row (although it is and probably always will be my favorite), i'm now taking suggestions for must-reads (and a brief description of what its about).
highway to the danger zone
i had the house to myself this weekend... freaked the shit out of me. i'm the kind of person that feels like people are lurking. i'm living in an old house, all 3 floors accessable to us, a front porch, 4 doors that lead out of the house... did i mention ist OLD and creaks a lot? the upstairs is like the burning flames of hell temperature wise, and coincidentally, is where my bedroom is located. so, slept on the main level on the fouton with windows that had no curtains...perfect for people to peek in as they are walking by. constantly thought someone was in the house with me... phone always with me with my fingers on the appropriate emergency dialing numbers. call me a pansy if you must... i don't want to spend the night alone in old creepy houses ever again, even if they are mine.
new hair-do
new hair-do
Originally uploaded by conniemg6.so, this is what it turned out like, the self-cut. i think i'm going to grow them out, but it'll be fun for a while.
summer air was heavy and sweet, you and i on a crowded street a half a world away
don't know what made me think of it, but was thinking this morning about the groud beef near disasters at subway this past winter and fudruckers this spring. like i said, not sure why i was thinking about it, but it brought a silent laughter to me, none the less. (c:
bangs are in my very near future. any major objections should be posted on here before 5.30pm minnesota time OR called to my cell by 6pm minnesota time today.
OK-- so i'm sitting at work today, bored, so i go to the coffee shoppe that's just through the hole in the wall, to chat with the girls working over there. one of the girls just came back home (st. cloud) to finish her degree..she was in eau claire for the past 4 years. got to talking to her about stuff and aiesec came up, except i usually don't say "aiesec" when i talk about aiesec. its usually something like "this international internship exchange program that i help run on st. cloud campus". and for some reason i got to talking about the salaam program with her... explaining the whole partnership and which countries it involves. "my roommate's in morocco on an internship right now" says girl. so i ask "did she just find it herself or did she go through some organization?" .... "through some organization.".... me: "called aiesec?"... her: "YES!"... me: "that's the one i'm involved with.... so, you must know of eric? krystal? nikki?" ... her: "oh my god, eric is the person she always talked about". lol. so, she's thinking about joining the st. cloud chapter for this coming year, after i explained that aiesec isn't just for business majors. small world, even between minnesota and wisconsin. so, melissa from eau claire in morocco... i've found your roommate, erin, and she's alive and well.
and i feel like i'm living someone else's life
declan and i spoke for the last time while we're both in the same country... for a while at least. its kinda sad to say goodbye, but then again, i'm pretty sure that we didn't. "have fun at work"... "ok, have a safe journey". yep, that's what it was, no goodbyes. really, the only thing that's going to change is the time difference.. 6 hours in the opposite direction. not bad. its one of those things that you're sure will never end. its impossible to be able to talk for hours, not realizing its for hours, and not stay friends for a good and long time. that's my theory, anyway. we'll have to see if it works out.
was asked at a job interview today "what are your near future plans?". i interpretted this as "what are your plans for the next year?". i had to be honest with them. i don't know. i can tell you what i'm doing tomorrow, and probably next week, but after that, my life is always pretty unsure. a few things are for sure... i graduate in december (as far as i know), will do everything in my power to get to SSC, and then again, do everything in my power to get to LTM this fall, and WSC this winter... make good on my promise to be in the UK in January (but that's even not 100% for sure). its kinda freaky thinking about that, the fact that i have no secure plans beyond december. i very much like "tenetive plans". a rough sketch if you will. i guess, with the lifestyle change come the new year, so may the planning style have to change.
i'm to the point in my life that i thought i'd never really come to. my friends are all moving away or moving on with their lives. i have very few people in st. cloud that i'd like to call up an actually chill with on my down nights. there was a time where i had about 20 people, off the top of my head, that i could call and within 5 minutes have plans with at least one of them for the night. its a thinker, now. usually end up at home with the roommates, sometimes not even wanting them around. ...but this place that i'm at is so transitionary. starting to adjust out of the college life and trying to be more responsible... or less irresponsible, rather. kind of a rut in life, in which i'm neither here nor there, neither coming nor going. in time, i'm sure it'll pass, and i'm sort of embracing it right now. but its also bringing quite a bit of sorrow to my life. not necessarily in a bad way, just in a realistic, this is life, kind of way. its sometimes surreal, like its not really me and i'm not really at this point.
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on a lighter note, is it bad that i think carlos mencia is funny...? i feel bad for laughing because of the whole 'cultural understanding' thing... which is probably why i do laugh, because i shouldn't. anyways, i'm kinda excited that comedy central gave him his own show. disturbingly entertaining stuff.
Your so good to me, I know, But I can’t change
plasma... anyone have an opinion about giving that? i'm not totally sold on the idea, especially seeing what it does to the insides of my elbows. i currently look like a severe drug addict.
my favorite and most frequent drunk-dial will be leaving the country tomorrow... going home. now, i'll have to be more aware and strategic about phoning him. (dialing the UK at midnight central time may get a bit annoying.)
we discussed our party night for ssc yesterday. i have to say, its going to be like none that i've ever experienced before. interesting, if nothing else.
have i mentioned that i'm super-stoked about being involved in this fall's recruitment planning?. 'cuz i am.
la la la la.. don't mess with my heart
i'm dissapointed in myself. i feel like there are a few people that believe in me, but they're not the ones that will make certain stuff happen. i just keep setting myself up to be knocked down again. its like, nothing i do is ever good enough to get me to the place i want to be. it gets sad after a while.---jealousy ran through my body yesterday. talked to declan while he walked the noisy streets of NYC. they'd just gotten out of STOMP. mom wanted to get me tickets to that for my graduation 4 years ago.. the show ended up on the night of graduation. that's pissed me off for a while now. he's one-upped me again! bastard. and then came the call from drew, who was at coyote ugly in vegas... i'm not sure if it was the alcohol or dancing on the bars that he thought i'd like so much, but i'm pretty sure that any place that has both of those variables makes connie a happy girl. good call, shooter.and just so EVERYONE knows, holly made me cry yesterday... there, its out in the open and i'm not ashamed. no, she didn't kick my ass. she couldn't if she wanted to, no matter how much she tries to convince herself otherwise. unless, of course, there were some other sort of factors (ie: i recently fell from a 10 story building and every bone in my body was broken).. then she may have a chance.thanks for the pizza and margaritas, babe. it was long overdue, and i'm blaming your boyfriend for that.
thought this was kinda funny
watchin Operah
Originally uploaded by lil'red devil.searching through pictures on flickr... thought this was kinda humorous.. and aiesec-like
pickin' wild flowers
there's quite a bit of enjoyability in being tan... ehm, tannER, than yesterday morning at least. after about 2 months break, i'm again feeling the aiesec bug. getting into planning and organizing this thing. marketing and recruitment, here i come. i hate that money is the only thing holding me back from doing what i want. they say that money should never be an issue, but it always is. damn it all. i am now taking donations for the "CONNIE IS BROKE" fund. please inquire within for donation options! (c:happy birthday!
all i can say is that my life is pretty plain
skies are clear blue... kinda has a haze because of the humidity. so i'm going to the beach. yeah yeah, i know what all you coastal peeps are thinking. "there aren't any beaches in MN". but we like to think so, even if the "crashing waves upon the shore" are simply from the speed boat that just buzzed by.
ahh, a day of reading by the water to drown out lifes worries.
i have two fresh holes on the inside of my arm.. appeared within the last 24 hours. i don't like it, but it'll be a necessity for the next few months. trying to roll in the bucks any way possible. two current jobs and the plasma gig. got a call yesterday from a fancy wine bar & grill... they want me to work there. i'm contemplating. workaholic??...mumken. bound and determined to pay off the credit card?... deffo!
i feel like i'm losing touch with people. especially ones that i've met in the last 4 years. i'm a person that has her cell phone qued with numbers on my speed-dial. i have an opening as of late and another is soon to move away. trying to figure out who to replace them with... all i can think of is some people from my home town. thought that i had moved on from there, but i've recently been sucked back in. never EVER thought that i'd be checking my schedule to see when i can get back there next. but alas, that's what its coming down to.
am i crazy? i think perhaps that's what it may be.
any good gift ideas for a 7 year old girl's birthday?
its a real fine way to start
i don't get it.
i understand the thrill of stuff exploding .. safely (fireworks, old condemned buildings, etc..), but i will NEVER understand how someone could think that blowing human beings up could be fun/enjoyable/necessary...----possibly the last independence day i will spend in my hometown. its a bit bitter sweet. its about the only time i get to see anybody from high school.. at least in large quantities. i think at least half of my graduating class will be married by this time next year. kinda creepy. scoped out some of their rings.. apprently, sizes are getting bigger every year. holy shit.was supposed to have an innocent night out. but back home, i don't think that's ever possible. can't ever pass up free alcohol. which causes friendliness to surface more quickly than would have happened normally.haha, trips home may be more frequent, i'm not thinking home is SO bad, anymore.
ode to joy
i'm not really sure who this "joy" person is, but i do know a kaitlin that deserves a shout-out.to the person that i know will give me a straight answer whenever i complain, need advice, am just looking for someone to talk to. you're one of THE best. and i'm happy to call you one of MY best. just think, 22 years ago, you probably made your mom miss the fireworks and i'm guessing she resents you for that. but I love you.. and don't resent you.thanks for always being there and i hope you have a fantabulous day!ps: my grandma says that you share this day with one of taylor county's finest.
my country tis of thee
Happy Birthday UNITED STATES OF AMERICA!another townie 4th... i hope you make it through the day Katie!....and happy monday
we like to party, we like, we like to party
made THIS last night. trying to get people at SSC 2005! starring some of you...
