Taurus
anyone in st. cloud tonight?...:
The stars have an incredibly productive day lined up for you. Afterward, indulge in some fun out on the town -- you deserve it, and it'd be a pity to deprive the world of your fabulous presence.
Lost in the distance, Dont know where to go
i'm at that point in my life, the point that i never thought would come. and now its here, all too soon. starting to make real grown-up decisions. i don't want to be grown up. but i don't want to stay a college student either. its come to the lesser of two evils type thing. keep exchanging friends with countries. and me? will i stay here, or go? i'm not sure. soon to apply here, send them my resume as requested. first round of revisions completed. but i'm not sure. i need to learn some languages. but which one(s)?
You can run a red light, Give up at a red light
i'm pushing people away. trying to protect myself. its not even subconciously this time. i've started things again that i know are bad for me, that have been bad for me since they've started. i'm confused as to who are the good and the bad right now. some, i know are bad, but can they be good right now? and some i know are so so good, but is it bad right now? have to quit trying, need to be more indifferent. not to force things to happen. quit thinking so much about things and people. and quit the randomness. had insomnia last night. and just as i forced sleep upon myself, two bads dubbed it an appropriate time to converse. i had insomnia last night. although some may believe that i'm unorganized, a non-planner, i most certainly am organized and a planner. all the what-ifs came rushing into my brain. if scenerio 1, then xyz need to happen. if scenerio 2, then nqr need to happen. what can i do to make xyz, or nqr happen? well, mgd can not happen if either xyz or nqr need to happen, and no matter what, one of them do need to happen. most likely, mgd will happen. all these things came rushing to my brain as i was wanting so badly to sleep.
help! i need somebody
anyone know how to create a proper cover letter? i fixed my resume today, just have to write the letter to go with and then i'll be sending it to those places that have requested it. getting together tonight to talk aiesec. to finish school or to not? that is the question.
Anything you want to, do it. You want to change the world, There's nothing to it
i'm going to apply. for which one, i'm not quite sure, but i am.
the new job is going to be enjoyable. the people there are fun and just as goofy as i am. i know what you're thinking... "smells like disaster". mumken.
need to fix my resume and send it out.
good vibrations
2 for 1's = good
mac and cheese = good
multiple sun trainees yelling into the phone all at once = good
i'm a user. practiced my mad skillz last night.
our house doesn't have A/C. the heat was deadly. and so i used some local businesses. skopko, target, walmart all got used. my new place of employment got used.. not only for the employee discount. and when shiro and i got back to my place of burning death after our using streak, we found my roommate being consumed by the burning death on the couch. QUICK!!! ... RECESSITATION!!!
dropped shiro off and headed to yet another establishment of usability. i hang out with holly too much at the mill. " are you connie?.. thought so. i don't need to see your i.d." ... damn it all. need to learn to mix it up.
my room was like an oven. decided to sleep on the love seat on the 4 season's porch. clearly heard every drunkard stumble by the house during the night. roommate to me this morning: "damn, that's what we used to sound like after the bar. who would've known?!"
to those of you that are in the final few hours of the current job: congratulations! and good luck!
i woke up this morning going "wait a tic... did that just happen, ... no... , did that just predict the future?... god, i hope not". i hate the feeling of not knowing where you are when you wake up. feeling like you've just snapped back from some other place and are questioning reality.
i feel like i've been at the post office a lot lately.. i've sent someone something for the past 4 days. and will continue sending random stuff for the next few days. oh how i love snail mail.
conference call last night.. for fall recruitment. i've kinda missed them. don't think i've been on one since april. Ricky G's farewell boat party is on the 30th, and apparently the Rowdies aren't representing. although i'd love to be there, sometimes one needs to prioritize. i really need to get back there. its funny how you miss the stupidest things about places. the biggest thing i miss about new york.. the subway and walking to get to places. i'm beginning to hate driving, a thing i once loved more than anything. i miss the smell and the quality of people watching that's available. flannery's, the staff, chris, peeps in soho...
its currently 96f. and i'm off work to go to the new work. dropping more off at the post office. special people get things from me.. i guess there are some not-so-special ones getting stuff from me too, this time around.
its getting hot in herre
holy bejesus... i love having all four seasons where i live. but the extreme stuff is when i get annoyed. don't much like it here when its -35f OR 95f ... 95f wouldn't be so bad, but then pile on the humidity. i don't know how some of you do it!
shiny and new
i bought a new nalgene bottle today. alex, if you read this, you can do what you wish to my old one. you no longer have to bring it with to SSC because i'm no longer going to buy or bring you a steak for payment.i've decided to postpone my venture to the UK until january. it just makes sense, plus, then i at least have a chance of making it to SSC.i'm bored in this town. and so i sleep a lot. thought about actually waking up this morning to go roller blading. but that never happened. i have to figure out ways to entertain myself.
It's the perfect day Nothing's gonna bring me down
wow, for not really doing anything today, i've done quite a bit...-figured out how to upload photos-uploaded all photos from this past weekend ... can be viewed HERE-talked to 3 of my favorite brits, one whose voice i haven't heard for almost 6 months!-took a friend out to dinner-chatted for a little while with my favorite jillo-started that new job-mailed that one thing-talked to that crazy asshole of an egyptian that i've been missing so much-found out that my student ID doesn't work properly-realized that i miss kait ... she needs to move closer
who is that girl i see, staring straight back at me?
a townie, that's who.
holy man, for only being 2 days that i was gone from st. cloud, it sure seems like it was a LOT longer. first off, i must say that before my adventurous weekend started, i stopped and bought a digital camera on saturday morning on my way out of town. therefore, i have mucho pictures as proof of my townie weekend in minnesota and wisconsin.!. they'll be uploaded later this week.
saturday was something so familiar, yet had a very different twist. it was a benefit: pay to get in the door, pay for everything there, silent auctions, live auctions, raffles, live music, sun, townies including mullets... amy's parents are part of this group that puts on this benefit every year, raises money for families in need in the area... a typical thing for the good hearted peeps of the midwest to do. this group that they're a part of?... its a biker group. my dad called me just as i was walking into this thing... "what the hell is that noise?" ... "remember i told you about that benefit that i'm going with amy to?... well, its sorta a biker's rally, dad." (i pictured my father with a look of horror and disgust on his face as i'm sure he was picturing his 'poor, innocent' daughter [that's me] being hit on my greasy biker dudes..). i saw WAY too much of some women, apparently i "filled out that shirt real good", met some really cool people, was eye witness to a golf-cart-upon-lawn-chair accident (folks, you shouldn't drink and drive ... not even golf carts!), listened to some really good live music (the band sounded a lot like Jonny Lang).
ahh, and then came the after party... about a mile away. we attempted to walk, got bored and flagged someone down to give us a ride.. it was a "jump in the back of the truck" type ride, the greatest kind. quick went to pick up a british dude who is living in the middle of the woods at a day camp. got back to this house, karaoke was already rocking, hottub and pool-including water falls and moodsetting lights was already to go, but i spotted the trampoline first. i forgot how fun jumping on one of those things is, and how gutsy i am when i've had a few. kait showed up and joined me on the bouncy device.. we're both lucky to be alive. karaoke until 5 am, numerous drunk calls, lots of pictures... holy man!
yeah, so then its father's day... so i be the good daughter and go to meet my family half way at my little sister's softball tournament. dad decided not to go. so there went that effort, but a long day of shopping ensued, with little sleep.. it tough to be with family in those conditions. took a nap at my cousin's house before i met up with miss townie queen, herself! today's townie trivia: what do you call the boots that you wear to do farm-work? asked katie that exact question last night... she looked at me as if i was trying to screw with her. i was just seeing if my family calls them something different than other people do... but alas, it seems as though all townies call them the same thing. answers are requested!.. prizes will be sent for any NON-TOWNIE that knows that answer.
holy... HOLY f***!
if there was ever a traineeship designed especially for me, its on .net right now. i have to admit, its been a long ass time since i've been on there, but just browsing today, i've found the ultimate dream job, timeframes are right for me, its a place in the world that i would never really want to go, but would be an amazing experience if i did. and its everything that i would ever want to do EVER for any company.
girls just want to have fun...
not too many things can make me uncomfortable. however, last night, one thing that can make me feel uncomfortable did.
holly called me from work around 10:30 pm. asked what i was doing. i told her that i was waiting for it to turn 11 so that i could call crack-whore to wish her a happy birthday and then was planning on going to bed. somehow, she convinced me to walk over to her work for a beer. (wasn't a tough task, really). while on my 3 block walk, a car stopped at a stop-light yelled something at me. it took everything in my power to not yell "fuck off asshole" back at him. ooo, i wanted to so badly. it made me feel dirty. i wasn't wearing anything provocative... a wife-beater, zip up hoodie and jeans that were a little too tight to be sexy.
where i come from, you don't cat call people. you can look, in fact, a drastic head-turn is flattering. but you don't yell out the window at people. its rude and degrading.
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one of my girlfriends cancelled today's lunch date. i was slightly bummed. i haven't seen her in about 9 months... her dad had died last spring and she took it extremely hard. i took her under my wing, she was like a little sister to me last summer. hung out with her numerous times a week. i felt extremely guilty leaving her for new york and when i got back, i was informed that she was in the hospital. she took some pills.. a few too many. my conscience has never completely cleared the fact that i left her.
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fundraiser tomorrow night with amy, possibly see kaitlin this weekend too. and then i think i'll venture home on sunday to see the dad, seeing as though it'll be father's day.
whoopsie, slipped my mind...
ahh yes, i also got a new job yesterday. as of next tuesday, i will officially be back on the serving map. its at a local bar and grill and i'm planning on being the most disgustingly sweet waitress on the face of this earth, sucking up as much as possible to fool them all into giving me a fat tip. yee haw!
and this is to eric.... reading kait's blog and the comments made me realize yet again that i do believe you're a rat bastard. suck that!
Carry on my wayward son For there'll be peace when you are done
i was reading jen's blog earlier today. had genuine tears in my eyes. some of my favorite aiesecers have been the trainees, salaam or otherwise. in fact, the only time i've flown anywhere for a reception event was to go visit the trainees in california. didn't go to see the aiesec members that were there (although, i'm glad to have met more of them and reacquaint myself with farid and ahmed).
i've been getting so much sleep lately. between 9 and 11 hours each night. i wake up, walk downstairs and find my roommate in the living room, folding laundry, doing housework, or homework. it feels so good, but it also leaves me feeling really guilty, like i've just stolen half a day from myself. but in all honesty, if i woke up any earlier, i would simply go to school and play on the computer, chat with people, not really accomplish any more than if i slept in. i think this abundance of sleep is the reason i stood up and felt a bit under the influence today... is too much sleep a bad thing?
yesterday was my day off work, and quite an exciting day. woke up late, as per usual, went to campus. while i was in the aiesec office, the guy who has already named our first born child, pedro, stopped in. he informed me of the fabulous drink specials on friday nights at one of the bars ($5 for a wristband and between 7 and 9:30, any rail drink or tap beer costs the amount of any silver coin you have). i think he and i will be seeing each other quite often this summer. think i may have to recruit my older brother to be my drinking buddy on fridays, though... he likes to protect me. --also applied for graduation and caught up with a few special people while i was there.
the applying for graduation was one of the things that lessened my "idiot" standings yesterday. the other, and possibly more important thing was that (sound the horns) i FINALLY went to apply for a PASSPORT! i think that alone dropped me like 20 notches down on the "biggest-idiot-in-the-world-o-meter". but that's just my personal opinion, and i don't really know how many notches is on the "biggest-idiot-in-the-world-o-meter" so, use your own discretion on how you want to judge that.
unbeknownst to him, my brother's car broke down in the parking lot of a business merely 2 buildings down from my new house. and so, he came over and got an unexpected grand tour.
cooked up some venison last night for supper. it got done just as my vegetarian roommate walked in the door, and so she helped herself to a plate of that and brown rice (mmmm, yummy). her vegetarian boyfriend gave both of us the most disgusting face ever. haha, vegetarians are sometimes humorous to me.
i'm so excited, that i just can't hide it. i'm about to lose control and i think i like it
i do believe that i've expressed that i'm an idiot before... many of you have witnessed my idiocracy first hand. but today, i'm crossing off one thing on the list of things that makes me an idiot! ... maybe even two!
Sing a sad song in a lonely place
i'm in a slump. have been for a few days. weather's been shitty, so i suppose i could blame that. but honestly. i need something to do. something that's going to be worth while. something that's going to make a difference to someone... something that doesn't have to do with counting things.
a year ago, i was preparing for my internship in new york city. starting to research what annual reports were, what i was going to be contributing to this organization in this country. what i was doing was meaningful. and since december, when it has been finished (for the most part), i haven't had a project that's felt like it needs my focus. i continue contacting companies, continue to work on aiesec stuff, but i feel like i need more responsibility, more challenge, something that has a definate goal.
You're Playin' With Your Life, This Ain't No Truth Or Dare
second post of the day, which is ridiculous in and of itself. this one will be worked on for a few hours, though. some of my thinking that i've mentioned already today.
i'm not sure how it works in other countries, but here in the U.S. of A there is quite an obsession with celebrities. i am just as guilty as the next person with celebrity knowledge. could be lack of better things to do with myself, could be just that i pay attention to random things such as the magazines by the check-out at the grocery store or the "msn today" the pops up whenever i sign into my messenger. but if you just found something out about a famous person, its quite likely that i already know about it. does this make me pathetic? perhaps. but what i think is different about myself versus the rest of america is that i know about things, i don't spend my days pondering what kevin and britney are going to name their baby, if katie will convert to scientology just to continue her relationship with tom, don't wonder if angelina is the reason brad and jennifer have split...
but some people do obsess about that stuff and i'm curious why people get so wrapped up in others lives. even people with non-celebrities... like people getting caught up with their friend's lives. this may not be a great analogy as i do understand that friends (usually) genuinely care about each other. but even so, if one of my friends is in a dead-end relationship, why should i care? perhaps its because i'm going to be hearing about the dead-end-ness until it comes to a halt, or because i don't enjoy seeing my friends being hurt because i genuinely care for them, but its not me... and everyone needs to live and learn.
back to the celebrities, though. the obsession... is it possibly because of all the evil feelings humans could possibly have? is it the constant yearning to be the best of the best, the hunger for money, and wanting those at the top to fall to possibly make room for you? the "waiting for their 'perfect' lives to fall apart" to make yourself feel better about what you have? is that why these people are under a constant microscope?
does money and celebrity give them the ability to buy things that normal human beings wouldn't be able to? islands in paradise?... yes. trips on spaceships?... yes. innocence?... i'm not sure. i don't know if anyone knows whether a person committed a crime unless you are there to see it, in living color. i don't think anything is ever black and white, there's always complications, twists, different viewpoints, tainted evidence... god help me if i ever get called in for jury duty.
and speaking of innocence... i am so happy to be grown. i feel bad for children that are growing up in today's society. the 80's and 90s were pretty clean, in my opinion. the only true tragedy that i can clearly recall is that tape that skipped during that "live" milli vanilli performance. ahh, and the "queen of heart" being killed in paris. but that's about it for me. i'd be scared shitless if i was a little kid today. we hear about abductions right and left, i feel like there are so many more acts of violence today. even the small high school that i attended (800 students) had bomb and shooting threats. not to mention the kids who are deprived of parents all together because both are in the army in different countries fighting for who knows what. and adults that take advantage of kids these days. i know it happened when i was a kid, but i didn't know of anyone that it happened to. not until i moved to college had i heard of any of my friends speaking out about the attacks on their innocence while they were a child. and it seems to be happening more and more.
this scares me tremendously. i've always wanted to have kids, but in all honesty, who would want to introduce something as frail and innocent as a child into this increasingly-evil world? is it possible to decrease the threats of today? or with the years, will they just continue to compound?
here i go again on my own
listening to the radio on the way to work today revealed that again today, the weather contains threats of tornados and i am here in this building all alone, questioning the security with an all-glass front, high ceiling, bathroom with lots of shelving... damn.
have two additional jobs pending. not sure how much traveling that will allow this summer. thinking that just maybe the UK excursion may be put off until january. but then again, maybe not.
i've decided to make an effort to be more understanding of the way other people work. i've always known that the way i do things is not the ONLY way to do things. it works with communication too. i'm a thinker, and with my thinking comes speaking. sometimes in reverse order. i need to always remember that some thinkers are just thinkers and some speakers are just speakers. that the two don't come hand-in-hand. i have to keep reminding myself that some things don't always mean the same thing to everyone. that not everyone's so sentimental and needs to hang on and place a meaning on everything. i need to work on that too... to not get quite so attached to things and people. everything comes and goes in life, things happen, some things are meaningless.
i'm back in town, but i am still bored. i don't think i have enough to do. i think some more jobs will come in handy with this, but will also do a number on the chances of actually having a tan this summer. bored bored bored. yesterday i was so bored that i watched the Bridezillas and America's Next Top Model marathons all day, both quite entertaining but ... i need a hobby, any suggestions?
if the sky can crack
i LOVE storms... however, not digging the tornado warning that's going on all around me right now. i'm at work, alone, not sure how secure this building is and i'm a bit freaked. lived through hurricane charlie last year, and that was fine. actually went outside and played when we were in the worst part that flew over my friend, meredith's house south of tampa. but i think i'm scared right now because i'm alone and have no one to calm me down. and those big black clouds look pretty damn nasty!
wandering free, wish i could be part of your world
yesterday morning holls and i woke up and decided to have another go at getting out onto the water. however, we learned from our previous mistakes and decided upon a simple paddle-boat venture instead of anything machanical. took a tour of the lake while having a sing-along... had to keep our distance from shore so that no one could hear us, of course.
when we got back to st. cloud, i decided that today was as good a day as any to finish getting my stuff out of my apartment. so i called the current residents up and let them know that i was coming. i still have keys because i'm going to be back there this fall so i let myself in. found much more stuff waiting for my taking than i had packed... all my pots and pans, dishes, cups and tupperware containers were set in boxes with the rest of my things... hadn't planned on taking any of that stuff. was rather annoyed and maybe a bit pissed, actually. so, i figured if they were trying to get rid of my stuff completely that they had missed a few things. took my rugs from the bathroom, plants, blankets, radios, clock from the wall, the iron, all my knives, tools, cleaning supplies, even the can opener. "you don't have to take everything, if you're just moving back this fall"... translated to me "you don't have to take the stuff that we use". they're just lucky i didn't take the silverware, entertaiment center, dvd player, tv and couches ........... was tempted! but its now official... the "used-to-be-soon-to-be-again-roommate" is the current roommate again (along with her boyfriend). i'm anticipating some interesting stories this summer.
last night was my first night back in civilization in weeks and after the apartment drama, i needed a good cold beer. called pretty much everyone in my phone to see who wanted to play. one response... and so my friend mo and i went to visit holly at work. live music, apps and a tall glass of honeyweiss hit the spot. its funny, though. went out to the bars downtown afterwards. walked through the first, ran into 2 friends, chatted for about 5 minutes, walked straight through the second and decided to call it a night. either i'm growing up, or the guy i was with just didn't feel like the "going downtown" type person to me... could be both.
i need a night with my homegirls .. i do believe saturday seems like an appropriate night. kait's house seems like an appropriate place. yee haw.
i've kinda been driving myself crazy with this detachment from humankind. some may like it, but i crave human interaction. bugs and critters just don't speak my language. therefore, i have myself to talk to... been having lots of writing and thinking sessions. back to the overanalyzing of things and worrying myself. but i'm back in town now. can interact with people. god, i'm SO excited. wilderness and country is for VACATIONS and VISITS with parents and grandparents... that's it, from now on... seriously!
cabin in summer
cabin in summer
Originally uploaded by conniemg6.where the green chairs are sitting is where the keg-stands took place (c:
cabin in summer from road
cabin in summer from road
Originally uploaded by conniemg6.see, its green and friendly looking... come visit
pictures from my trip to the west coast (round 1)
HERE
that's the next thing on my list
so, holly and i had quite the adventures last night at the cabin. between getting stranded in the pontoon in the middle of the lake, dropping a phone in the lake and not realizing that a hot coal from the shisha was sitting on my bare arm, i can honestly say that i've never had a day quite so jam-packed with randomness. i'm sure the neighbors were wondering what the hell was going on with all the "baywatch-esk" stripping into the bathing suit and jumping in to save the phone and running in our suits, not to mention the shrill girlie screams evertime something went wrong. holls, i think we need to write a book.. or screenplay or something.***note: if you ever get a text message that says: "Holly's phone fell in the lake and mine is on roam, so it may be a day or so before you are able to call her again..." it just may mean that holly dropped her phone in the lake and mine is on roam so it may be a day or so until you are able to call her again.on a bouncier note, i'm moving back into town where my phone isn't on roam and i have internet access readily available.. not to mention television. signed my lease today! and i have a few jobs that look promising. so, i'm one happy girl. next thing to do. get the fucking passport.
Patricia and Connie at (almost) the top of Vernal Falls
Patricia and Connie at (almost) the top of Vernal Falls
Originally uploaded by conniemg6.waterfalls are amazing. and when you get good climbing buddies like patricia and ronan, they can be even more amazing!
makin a list and checkin it twice
i was checking out one of holly's books this weekend. 1,000 places to visit before you die.. or something like that. i currently have 15 down and a mere 985 to go. woohoo! and that's just me being on one continent.
moving back to civilization. did my paperwork today. i do believe that my car will like me a bit more because of this decision. however, the brekken may not. i'll probably be the most familiar face up there all summer, though. plus, on her LATE nights working, she'll have a close place to crash.
shiro and i spent the weekend at the cabin with holly's mom and a bunch of people who like to call themselves "trunk slammers". the weekend folk up there on the peninusla are good fun and take our witty/snotty/sarcastic comments with the good nature they were intended on being taken with. we fished off the dock (i haven't done that in a LONG time), roasted marshmallows, broke the neighbor's golf cart, slept a lot, read a lot, thought shiro died (she slept from 1am - 6pm), watched movies.... vegged. i got the first drunk-dial in quite some time. makes me miss new york, the crack-whore and her lovely roomie.
ahh, an old friend just walked into the shoppe. told me plans about her desire to explore australia/new zealand in january before she starts classes in australia in february. she's looking for people to stay with and hang out with. any takers? she's a pretty midwestern girl who hangs onto her O's too long as all stereotypical midwesterners do. good fun to be had with that one.
its starting to become a frightening reality that all my friends and myself are going to be moving away. kait's living hours away this summer. holly's soon to be fuck knows where. the brits are headed home in a little over a month. twin may be a bit closer this fall, but then i'm going to a different fuck knows where come the new year. my used-to-be-soon-to-be-again roommate is going to china with the boyfriend next year. most of the madisonites are gone. jen'll be gone by next year. *tears* oh wow. who else?
i think its completely crazy that i've met and developed friendships with so many people in my 3 short years in @. i talk to as many or more aiesecers on an average day than i do family and school friends combined. four years ago when i started at st. cloud state university in the middle of no-where usa, i couldn't have dreamed to have a handful of worth-while friends, much less buckets full of them who all have couches all over the world.
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its sunshiny outside. the first day since i got back. and i'm at work instead of keeping up the tan that apparently no one can notice. probably the reason it took me hours to write the above entry and the reason that the above entry is so choppy and random. my appologies
dedicated!
group pic
Originally uploaded by conniemg6.AMY! this ones for you. the posse, a night out, celebrating miss brekken's completion of school. need to do it again!
its so complicated
frustration levels are raising already. its only day two of living at the cabin and the well over an hour commute to work is going to break me ... or more specifically, my car.
i just had a really amazing conversation with the lady who was supposed to be my manager had i stayed working at that one coffee shoppe. talked about opportunities in life, what to do after i graduate, toxic relationships/friendships. how you can't be a "woe is me" person, you need to quit crying about shit, figure out why it made you cry and learn from it. how you're only young and detached for so long and you need to embrace it, fly, leave, do the magical stuff you've always dreamed of. how some people are worth sacrificing for, but then again, you can't sacrifice who you are, can't alter the human you represent.
we're movin' on up
moved to holly's cabin last night. not sure how long that will last, could be all summer, or could be until next week. either way, i'll spend my fair share of time there as i was dubbed OFFICIAL BUG KILLER yesterday. don't worry, babe, i'll take care of the wee beasties for you!
i'm not too fond of the fact that my phone is on roaming up there. or the fact that i'll have messenger service about 5 times all summer. pretty much cuts me off completely from all of my friends for all of the summer (boo). but it will be rather relaxing, or at least its what i'm anticipating.
i'm pretty sure that the neighbors are either going to love us or hate us, probably very few falling between on the likability-scale. this assumption is coming from the sing-along we had all the way back to st. cloud (a 1.25 hour drive) this morning. expecting that to be the theme of the summer, along with holly purchasing and teaching herself how to use a guitar. should be quite entertaining.
hearing a few peeps talking about coming to visit the "cabin". you know who you are and you know that you should. t minus 2 months that we'll still be there. so, get your tickets NOW! you know from experience that it'll be WAY more fun than Hawaii or NYC..
its just emotions taking me over
i left the midwest for just over 6 days, vowing to return with a tan, new friends, and reconnecting with old ones. it has been a success. its been quite a rollercoaster of emotions. it seems crazy to me that when i'm gone, i don't miss anything from "home". i don't know if i will ever miss anything but the friends, family and the occasional smell of a dairy farm (crazy, i know, but i'm almost sure that katie will back me on this one) from the midwest. san francisco was beautiful, as were its surrounding areas. i did nothing that i absolutely wanted to do when i left for the west coast. no golden gate bridge, not trolly cars, but i went for the people, not the place. and i will be forever grateful that kaitlin stole my credit card that one april day. the past six days were some of the most fabulous that i've ever had. i wish i had more time to spent with some, and less spent with others. Get Golden made me golden in every way possible. thanks guys, you rock my world! never would i have ever thought that i would have spent a weekend in the middle of the wilderness with 73 fellow aiesecers. smashing!to whom this may pertain to, but mostly Dan, Drew, Declan and Steve:sitting next to kaitlin at 11:35 pm last night, watching the lights of the bay area fade was pretty rough. i must admit, there were a few warm tears running down my face, as there are again just thinking back. kait gave me a hug and said, "don't worry, habibti, you'll see them soon." i hope to god she's right. if i got to see you all tomorrow, it wouldn't be soon enough. i felt more at home apartment hopping in that hotel than i do in this college town that i've called home for the past four years. you are all amazing men, amazing people, and i want you to know that. you have stolen my heart and i am truly envious of the people in the bay area that get to spend time with you on a regular basis. the midwest awaits your return, if you'll have it. i genuinely hope our paths cross many, many times in the very near future. i love you guys, you rock my world!
