wish you were here
hung out with the parents and their friends tonight. i can not express how much fun "old" people are to hang out with. i have heard so many stories about the "good ol' days" its rediculous... plus, they're always intrigued when i answer their question: "so, what 're you doing when you graduate?" with: " as of december, i have the world at my fingertips"...my mom's best friend (also the woman that i call my "second mom" because she only has 3 boys and has pretty much adopted me and my little sister as her daughters) said tonight.."if only your college friends could here these types of conversations!".. if only you could. its a whole new level.i'm spoiled... between parents, godchildren, friends, .... this weekend, i was spoiled, and loved/appreciated every second. thanks!
sweet home taylor county
i am townie. right now i am sitting in townieville... with dial-up internet. and i'm kinda liking it. i love being gone from here, but there's something special about knowing people when you walk into the grocery store. being able to run into your long-lost friend's parents and finding out what they've been up to these past 4 years in a matter of minutes. being able to embrace the fact that i'm not ALL medford anymore.it dawned on me the other day... my days in minnesota are numbered. although i've been there for 4 years, after graduation in december, i will have very few reasons to go back ... at least, not for decent periods of time. i'm trying to drink in all the midwest that i can. to keep it with me when i go. patrick and i drove home LATE last night. its noon-thirty and we haven't even been home for 10 hours yet. but on that late night drive, we were thinking of what we could do to entertain ourselves this weekend. one of our brother-sister sets of friends wants to get together for a drink, so we decided that saturday night will be the that night at our "hunting shack". cheap fun. there's just something wonderful about blasting music from someone's vehicle (all windows rolled down), sitting around a fire, catching up ... and having a blast for only $10 each. could be a summer of mostly that... fires and cheap, fun company. but we still need to GET to the summer. two weeks... two weeks
You got a fast car, and I got a plan to get us out of here
talked to my bro last night about cars. he took his to the junkyard this morning. i said that mine will be thrown out when i graduate. "your going to need a car after you graduate," said patrick. "not where i'm going!" said I. "where the hell you gonna go that you don't need a car?" I laughed a little. "New York, Some other country, i dunno, somewhere!". Patrick was confused. "you'll need a car. you'll definitely need a car in New York." (patrick has never been there) so he continued with his confused rationale "how you gonna get around? how are you going to get home? you'll need a car!" "nah, public transportation...ahhh, how it is my friend!""how you gonna get back to wisconsin? you'll need one to come home.""patrick, they invented these things called AIRPLANES... and then i use a telephone to call up the parents and say, i'll be flying into minneapolis on this date and at this time, come and pick me up."(patrick has never flown)he doesn't get me... but then again, i don't really get him either. i do believe that when he leaves the country it'll be because 1)his significant other forced him and/or 2) he's coming to visit me.
when you wish upon a star
if i could have one super power, right now i would choose mind-reading. there are so many i'd like to read at the moment. things i know people are thinking that would be VERY helpful for my piece of mind right now... or maybe they're not thinking them...either way, would ease stress. i could do without the wondering.i wore flip-flops to school today. it snowed while i was in class.matt meyers called me tonight. i was happy to hear his voice. it was an unexpected pleasure for the night. i love those. i really should quit wasting time. i have mucho homework and packing yet tonight.
how can we be lovers if we can't be friends?
title inspired by
Lynnette's new blog. i still feel bad about stepping on her foot with stillettos on new years. )c: she's my dancing IDOL... welcome aboard, miss! and... thanks for getting that freaking song stuck in my, kait and holly's heads last night (boo).
final stuff starts on monday. yay for that. however, i'm not sure that the relief of having one class completely done and two others well on their way to being done is going to be a large enough pay off for the hell of the weekend i'm going to end up having in Townieville... on the dial-up, researching, writing, blah blah blah.
stress and frustration levels continue to rise, as they do every semester 'bout this time. i don't know why, perhaps its my major, but "all-nighters" happen only two or three times a semester. could be my lack of caring, too. either way, i do believe that the amount of work i've had this year has been ideal and has allowed my dreams to stay happy, unlike
other peoples. send her a hug today.
adding to the stress and frustration has been the weather, lately. its been COLD... like 38f yesterday. and although i shouldn't bitch too loudly 'cuz i know some of y'all got snow the past few weeks, it makes my obsession with sandals hard to deal with.
tonight, i'm anticipating a late night at the library (by late i mean like 9:30-10... i'm there by 7:30 am, give me a break) and then spending the night packing my apartment and cleaning. i found a sub-leaser for this summer!! this will mean avoidance when someone give me that
i'm cute and innocent look and says "so, what are you doing tonight?"
the frusteration levels are rising
i hate everything about you....
MR. TEST!
i hate school. i hate tests. i hate presentations...ok, i don't really hate presentations, but i do sometimes hate the topic i'm assigned and the group members i have.
maybe HATE is a bit of a strong word for my feelings, but i'm definately not liking any of it at this moment.
i need a vacation. california sounds kinda nice about now.
but alas, that must wait for another month. medford, WI will have to do for this week... thursday, the brain is getting unplugged!
must've been wild angels
have decided that i have more fun going out.. dancing and singing when i can actually still stand and talk in completely understandable sentences. just wish the bars wouldn't be such rat-bastards and have drink specials on weekends... it was a good night by all standards... until 4 am when the brother called with relationship problems. it makes me feel good that he trusts me enough to do that, but honestly here. i'm not exactly the best person in the world to be coming to for relationship advice. i've had sooo many, i MUST be and expert. haha, naive children.
eeek
heard this song today and realized that these lyrics have been true for me more than i'd have liked in the last 4 years.
Dear Mom and Dad,
Please send money
I'm so broke that it ain't funny.
Well, I don't need much, just enough to get me through.
Please don't worry 'cuz I'm alright,
See, I'm playin' here at the bar tonight.
This time we're gonna make our dreams come true.
Well, I love you more than anything in the world.
Love,
Your baby girl.
(thats right, i'm a country girl.. like all townies. you should love me for that!)
i may bitch about the parentals every now and then, but my parents have always been there for me. i can pretty much expect a conversation about money to go like this.. (by the way, always ask dad.. he's the short-tempered softie. mom's the stubborn one who NEVER gives in):
ME: daddy........................
DAD: WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED NOW?!
ME: umm........ well, my car's not working the greatest right now
DAD: WHAT?!?!
ME: well i talked to patrick today and he thinks my transmission is done for
DAD: AND WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ABOUT IT?!
ME: umm, i don't know... i was hoping that i could get some of my tuition money in advance... and save all summer to pay you back.
DAD: CONNIE!!! I'M NOT MADE OF MONEY. ITS ABOUT TIME THAT YOU START FIGURING SHIT OUT ON YOUR OWN!!
(long silence.........cue crying)
ME: I'LL PAY YOU BACK! dad, i work like 35 hours a week and have a full load. its not like i'm just laying around. and i didn't ask my car to bust itself... .... . i don't know what to do........
DAD: well, JESUS CHRIST! (sigh) get it towed, get an estimate and we'll talk about the options later. don't tell your mom about this.
thing is, they always question.. but not really. they trust that the reason i need it is legit. i'm not one to run around buying expensive things (although mom has commented every now and then on the new pair of heels that i occasionally bring home 0c:) ... this is what AIESEC does to me.. (well, and my car.. although all the @ roadtrips contributed to that too). but i'm ok with being poor and being indebted to the parents for now. there are worse things in life.
pretty sure that i owe my parents a luxury nursing home in about 10 years...hehe.
and i already promised my older brother some Yankee tickets when i move to new york... he was pretty OK with that.
a dream is a wish your heart makes, when you're fast asleep
i slept about 14 hours last night. randomly waking up to my phone going off with waiting text messages.. giggling, responding and then passing out again, and having a midnight conversation with rusty. needless to say, thursday night really kicked my ass. i think i may take it easy for a while. save a little money.. i'll put my drinkin money into my "for california" fund.
a phone call from mom woke me up this morning. contemplated putting her into the voicemail, but figured that at 9 am, 14 hours of sleep was quite enough for one 24 hour period. we had a really good talk as i laid curled in my blankets.
i've been quite addicted to asian food lately. although thai is my favorite, the only thai restaurant in st. cloud, in my opinion, is shit. holly would claim otherwise. but if you've ever been to Peeps in Soho, i don't think much could compare. i thank god that phoebe (another national office intern from last summer) and i wound up being temporary roomies. she knew where the good CHEAP food was in New York... and i loved her for that. anyway, i've been experimenting lately... coming up with some concoctions. i can cook a lot of things well, but i've yet to excel at the asian stuff. any good recipes out there that i should attempt to conquer?
made a date with my used-to-be-soon-to-be-again roommate for this evening. dollar theater, here we come. waiting 3 months to see a movie is well worth the fee... and the lowering yourself to sitting on those very stained seats. watching movies is one of my very favorite things to do. so, tonight will be good! mmm, maybe a jug of carlo rossi will be in order for afterwards. (shit, am i ruining my "for california" fund before it even gets started? mumken.)
i don't want to be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately
all i wanted this morning was a croissanwich from burger king... and then, as i was driving past, opted not to. instead, when i got to work, i had some soup. but that only made me go into one of those 2 second depressions. every time i go next door to get something to eat or drink, something that i used to love is changed into something else. they used to have this bang-up veggie chili. one day they decided that it would be better to use zucchini instead of eggplant... i was depressed for like 10 seconds on that one. when they changed the focaccia recipe, it was a 4... but now they've outed the focaccia and ined some sort of not-as-good-as-focaccia bun. its the comfort things that cut me deepest...not the worldly stuff.
i'm starting here. taking responsibility for myself... I DID LAST NIGHT TO ME. not holly, not amy, ME (although without them, it would've been a different story). however, i'm at fault for putting myself though that. i am sorta proud of myself (and others), though. instead of being that obnoxious girl who calls at 2 am after last call, i decided that i need to be more curtious to others and text them to see if they're awake before calling. the smart ones don't reply at all... 'cuz everyone knows that even a "no" reply to an "are you still awake" really means a "yes" and then is fair game. argh... i'm a pain in my own ass.
$10 dollar haircuts at the usually $30/haircut place down from work. all proceeds for this "cut-a-thon" are going to the center of plant conservation .. not that i really care about anything more than a really good cheap haircut. i'm going.
HOMEWORK this weekend. that's all i'm really gonna do. lots and lots of homework. although, i do believe that amy talked me into going to some sort of lacrosse thing tomorrow and then going to the pubcrawl they're sponsoring tomorrow night. apparently, its the third largest laX tourney in the nation..held right here in st. cloud, mn. amy's reasoning for going was something like... lots of hot guys with really great bodies...really great UPPER bodies, and a 2 dollar cup for a pub crawl. hot guys and cheap alcohol. who wouldn't go to that? she did have a point. but shit, ............. i think i'm trapped.
homework, homework, homework...some sober convos with people... homework, homework.. its gonna be a long weekend.
jill, connie, jen
jill, connie, jen
Originally uploaded by conniemg6.you know that when you are around certain people, you are genuinely HAPPY.? here's one of my "genuinely happy" places...right between jen and jillo.
(thank god we're cute, too... would really be a bad picture if that wasn't the case.)
oo, ah, just a little bit.
first of all i want to say:CHRISTOPHER PFLAUMER ROCKS! YEEEHAAAW---AND IS THE NEWEST MEMBER OF @ US'S NATIONAL STAFF---
i can not express how exciting this is for me!... not to mention HIMthis past semester, one of my classes was a business consulting class. instead of teaching us how to consult a business, this class consists of us having one client per group and guiding this client in whichever direction they'd ideally like to go. in a discussion with my prof the other day, she told my group that we were the only ones that actually are doing what a consultant would do... helping the client figure out what would be most beneficial for them. its something that i am very much liking... putting together marketing plans, step-by-step ways of doing things... its like being a teacher and student all in one.
when i got into work this morning, my boss told me that he had given my name to one of their vendors... to be a design consultant. because i do quite a bit of display work here in our store, and the vendor was impressed with how it looks, they discussed it and handed over business cards, etc. called her this morning, waiting for a call back. hoping i could get $20 or more for going in to a store and suggest to them how to rearrange stuff to make it more appealing to the consumer.
90% sure that i found a sub-leaser for my room for the summer. this is good 'cuz now i am able to afford some of the things i'd like to do.
lost my credit card... cancelled it this morning and are having them send me a new one. 5-7 business days and i'm back in business... thankfully, the last purchase on the account was the last gas i put in my car. i'll probably go home tonight and it'll be sitting in the most stupid place ever. that'd be typical.
discussions are happening about the "utimate townie summer"... stay tuned
flickr is pissing me off today!
If I'm alive and well, will you be there holding my hand?
in st. cloud, we have this dude known as "superman". he's about 50.. maybe a bit older. he's a vet from one of the wars.. korea, vietnam?...i'm not sure which would be appropriate. anyway, he's a bit messed up and understandably so. he likes to dress in a superman costume and stand on street corners in different poses (cape flying and all). sometimes he has a large american flag flappin in the wind... all for the love of his country. i'm cool with loving your country, in fact, i promote it. but .. (shudder).. this guy. i've been sexually harassed by him more than once in my 4 years on campus... especially when the corner he picks is one that is a main entrance for campus. its interesting to see the walking patterns of people, women especially, when he's out. about a block either way of him, when people notice he's there, they start crossing the street to get away from him.. and cross back after they've passed him. last time he was posing on the corner, he yelled across the stree to me (i know it was to me, 'cuz i was the only person or vehicle around) "HEY!!, SEXY BITCH" (keep walking connie, keep walking...faster). Superman's back on his corner today... so, Stay To The North.!.finally got my pictures all uploaded onto Ofoto from this weekend. LTM, MADISON, MICHIGAN: and now, for your viewing pleasure. happy wednesday!
i'm leaving on a jet plane, don't know when i'll be back again
ideal summer:-work for a week after finals at the gift-shop in st. cloud-go home for 5-6 days for my cousin's wedding/little sister's dance recital-fly to san francisco for Get Golden (figure out a reason that i HAVE to be there to tell the folks)-get to new york for the summer... (still trying to figure out why i'd be there, though)-go home for other cousin's wedding-SSC-UK (France/Ireland???)-st. cloud for school )c:mind you, this would be IDEAL... and highly unlikely (sob)... should probably get the passport though, to make it at least seem more realistic
when can i see you again?
been thinking about the convos we were having this past weekend... and the more i'm not feeling it. we need to talk... and soon. 'cuz now its been sunken in and processed. i think some sort of conference call would be in order.
is there a doctor in the house?
second diagnosis today. seriously, if you are ever wondering if the pain in your abdomen is appendicitis, just give me a jingle and i will let you know based on your symptoms. i also know how to treat a mean coffee burn.
holly and kait are bad influences on me. sorry jim, for the message last night. it really wasn't supposed to go the way it did, but kait had pulled my shifting stick completely off my car mid-message and i really couldn't do anything but laugh histerically into the phone (ie: onto your voicemail). the question was legit, though. we'd really like to know.
home again )c:
i am back in sunny st. cloud (unfortunately). another weekend, true to aiesec form (it was @US's national Leadership Team Meeting), has gone by... and do i have some stories... but am opting to not reveal all of them. here are some stories from my weekend... i must first state that this was one of the most interesting road trips i've ever been on... having been split between 3 cars. the first (mine) being quite large and sometimes placed in the "granny car" category having passengers being myself and my LCP vanjah, second was a medium sized car... adding one person (the owner of the car), krystal..LCP of OOOO Claire. and the final vehicle we (5 of us now...adding the LCP of chicago's benedictine, marc, and a support team member, dotun "D") being a car that marc had earlier told me would "fit 5 comfortably".... it was a compact.-thursday night was spent in madison. from past experiences, i do know that staying at the @ house there results in an all night party. so, knowing that we had a LONG drive the next day, we chose to sleep at miss jenna's... only going to have a drink or two..... or more with the boys. after dinner with kristi, we went out with the boys, ....ending up crashing at their place and returning to jenna's the next morning to retreive our things.. i should have known. (fantastic night! thanks)-friday we spent in ann arbor. but first, we had a 5 hour trip in that match-box car. i swear, krystal and my hips had to have been shrunk a few inches each from the amount of space we did not have. everyone was required to chew a lovely scented gum in order for us to stand ourselves.. saw my TWIN for about 10 minutes, and then never again for the rest of the weekend. that made me sad. but naub convinced me to go out for what was honestly my first ever "you are fully in the minority" night of my life. quite interesting and exciting!-saturday, after meetings and figuring out what @ US is going to look like structurally in the next year, the night was chalked full...dinner with jen, secret sharing with the girls that included me falling off the bed twice (soberly), jen and i dancing in the lobby which peaked the interest of a table full of latino men (which only made us dance around stupidly even more), shots, pilots, and... a townie bar. ahh, how i felt like that night was MADE for me.-sunday, a very draining day for me. feeling a bit like i was standing in the room nakedly, we left the meeting early. therefore i do not know final results, but i hope that i made a difference this weekend. 15.5 hours after we left the meeting, and possibly knowing a few people i bit too well (c; , i was staring at the bed in my room... wanting to go to bed, but unable for another hour. ... thus, resulting in me skipping my class this morning.'twas a glorious weekend.. the kind that i wish happened more often. its amazing how comfortable and familiar it all seems. *sigh*
sunday in romulous
romulous?... who the hell has something in romulous MI?
well, one ...ok, two good things...
-they have townie bars!
-they have pilots that have nothing else to do than to buy a bunch of @ girls drink!
let me tell the ways i love @ people. ltm has jumpstarted the love affair i have with a simple student organization.
jen just took my platform away. i think i may cry...just as long as get to keep the pillow
i'm so ready for this weekend... need to be with @ers. like drugs. bringing all the ice fishing shit with me, so if you left anything, let you LCP know so they can grab it, except for Dan... i like your sweatshirt and may never return it.. mwahahaha! (by the way... does anyone have my red adidas sweatshirt in madison yet... i still want it back)lovely night in madison anticipated!found the culprit behind the BOB scandal. all i said was "hey.. did you... " and a sneaky smirk and "NO!... WE DID NOT" came flying out of the older bro's mouth today. this was my main guess all along, triggered by the out-of-the-blue question from BOB of "is holly a liberal". patrick (my brother) always calls her that. if you text messaged me back last night, let me appologize for anythink i may have said that could've been offensive.. i was sleeping (and holly and kait were quite impressed with my mad sleep-texting skillz) and erased them as i sent them... therefore, i am cluelesswith my oil changed, bags packed and a very refreshing coconut-mocha-smoothie, i am ready for vanjah to call so we can be outtie.. have a fabulous weekend y'all!
carly's hair color is:
strawberry blonde... asked her today
Lovers they may cause you tears, go ahead release your fears
my eyes are twitching from what i'm guessing is lack of sleep and very close to an overdose of caffeine.
i just gave myself a paper-cut.
i'm tired of sitting (note to self: typical office job = not for you).
i look like hell and am falling asleep as i am typing.
my homework is getting done, although i'm sure all the studying i did for my test today will do no good.
i have recently become obsessed with finding song lyrics and truly understanding (or attempting) the meaning and feelings of the song writers.
my headphone chord is too short, i feel like a dog on a leash... being unable to turn my head to the left without being thrown back to the right.
my toes are pretty.
i like dark chocolate!
according to the wrapper i just took chocolate out of, i'm supposed to "go easy on [myself]"
damn it, jim just added me to his skype.. now i'll have to talk to him every now and then.
i enjoy my convos with chris chan.
i wish there was a window in the aiesec office... the sun is out and it would be nice if i could see it.got a final conclusion on a survey that holly, kait and i did about a month ago via telephone. something like "if a male loses one of his testicles, does it throw of his balance?". vanjah told me yesterday that when one of his friend's testicles had to get removed, he felt like he was walking off balance for a while... until he learned how to counter act the extra weight on one side....
the randomness for today will now come to a close because i have to finish the homework before i start transitioning my new protege.
i'm tired
shit!
madison, how the fuck do you do this so often?..i must be a pansy
compiling as the night goes on
things that i've learned/realized/read/concluded tonight:
-8 shots of espresso does NOT make me shake (although, it just may have put a hole in my stomach)-"people withold feelings more often than thoughts"... guilty-i really miss my Yellowcard CD-tickets from NYC to London in August are just under $300 via studentuniverse !!-i like to procrastinate.... a lot-all this reading about "relationship building" is both intriguing and depressing... and although i may use it in my professional life, its very unlikely that i'll ever have the guts to use it in my personal one.-i've done so little studying this semester that i can't even identify the correct colors of the books i need to study from tonight-i'm missing talking to certain people... and wish that it would be easier to do so-i wish i could read minds-i want to start a band-dropping my curling iron ealier has left a noticeable mark on my forehead... thanks kait.-people that can randomly contact you on messenger services kinda freak me out.-woahoahoahoah, i'm 21 and invincible
go on, go on. leave me breathless
feeling very SPRING today, despite the rainy weather. its warm in the store, so i've shed my white jean jacket and am sitting in my grass green lace tank top with a very bright pink underneath...not to mention my week old blondeness and bright pink lipstick.
i hope its a sign of the amount of energy i'm going to be able to have all day long....
....because, i'm a dumbass. all semester i've been lounging, going home early, watching holly pull all-nighters constantly (holls, you really do need to stop that...at least a few hours each night. coffee shouldn't be your sole awake power), having complete faith that when i need to get the homework done, it will get done. holy shit, what have i done! group projects are coming down on me... and usually, i'm the group member who does the most, pulls the team along, just does it... but this time around, i'm feeling like a complete ass because i have 2 majorly over-achievers in my group. and so i'm feeling guilty, completely slacking... plus with the road trip starting thursday afternoon, 1.5 days of my week are shot in the ass, not to mention the probability of next monday being shot too.
on a brighter note (for me anyway), we talked our finance prof into delaying our test a week (actually the class stalled her so she couldn't get through all the material)
i think i'm going to need to invest in some "starbucks double shots" for tonight... and pray that some people will be calling me to keep my stupid self awake (or be online all hours of the night).
2 days until i get to see my fellow-bucky-folk!! i absolutely can't wait to be back in the mad-town. and a mere 3 before i see my @ twin!!!!!!... col, it has been way too long. we need to come up with a plan this weekend to meet up more often. (oh yeah, i'm really excited to see the rest of the leadership team too... i have been having withdrawl from some of you ...jill, jen, z-team, paul (i need a hug), rusty,................ ricky g.)
what would you ask if you had just one question?
i feel like death has been showing its face quite often lately. first the pope, then the cairo bombing, and this weekend 2 of my friends were in a fatal car accident. fortunately, they weren't the fatal ones, but still. i feel like i sound really morbid lately being so open with the whole death thing, but its what we live for ultimately. just so y'all know... there will be 2 kegs at my funeral, holly and kaitlin will sing... and it WILL be a party. (not that i'm planning on that happening any time soon, but you never do know)anyway... highlights from my weekend:-going to bed early on friday-fun filled "roommate" day on saturday-drunk dialing people i know i shouldn't be dialing-taking a "nap" in my friend's front yard after 6 hours of being an active partier-calling my bro for a ride home, having a "moment" in the street after news of the accident, talking about relationships until 2 am... this is a true rarety, my friends-listening to Bono sing live.......via cell phone!-sleeping til 4pm, using gift certificates at expensive restaurant and hitting the cheap seats movie theater with the roomie-phone call from BOB... don't know him, but apparently he knows me (trying to figure out which of my friends were in the background laughing...grr)-fun night of shisha and "word association" at kait and holly's.. shiro was there too.that's my life in a nutshell... this week is going to be short. can't wait to see everyone along our roadtrip!(eric, its been 2 days since i posted last ... so :P)
releived, happy, eager
rarely is there a day that i don't spend time with both holly and kaitlin. and yesterday was no exception.
as kait and i were cruising to culvers, we got to talking about the bombings in cairo. although i've never been there, i feel a sense of belonging in Egypt... because of all the people i know that went there on the salaam program, and those salaamers that i've spent mucho time with here.. not to mention all the boyfriends that i have met from there. (c; through all the stories that i have heard from all the america-to-egypt salaam participants, i sometimes feel as though i was there too... but that's not the important part of the conversation.
were any of our friends hurt? that was one of the first things that ran through my head. in all honesty, with as many of us @ers as there are in the world, any one of us could be caught in any of the tragedies that happen every day.
i have never been one to worry about my ultimate fate. not to sound morbid or anything, but i am a firm believer that everyone has an expiration date that no one knows and living is the best way to spend life before that happens. there is some amount of danger in anything a person chooses to do. i'm not signing up to try to be ghetto-fabulous in harlem, nor am i planning on frollicking through the hills of afghanistan to try to find mr. bin laden in hopes that he wants to be my friend. common sense here people. but to the contrary of my parents wishes, i will spend enough time in new york city despite the constant alerts of future terror attacks, and i will eventually go to the middle east to visit my friends.
its what i signed up for when i entered into the world of aiesec.
i am just about to start my world travels.. starting small, but eventually going to be big. i feel like my parents are some of the only that are concerned about my well being in other countries. apparently, i don't know the people i'm going with. and although i haven't known them long, or maybe don't even know what their faces look like, i do feel kind of a crazy excitement that what i would've considered a "safe enough person" to go visit three years ago isn't the same type of person i would today.
every now and then i turn around
the weather always seems to set my mood. i suppose the amount of sleep and tasks to do play a part in it as well. but today, tasks are minor, sleep was plentiful and the weather is gorgeous. thus resulting in a very upbeat connie.
bloodless
first off today... this glorious day, i would like to thank eric for his comment on yesterday's post. you know you have a true friend when they are comfortable calling you a psycho to the world.... and you know that there just may be a little truth in that. (c; (by the way... there goes your good word in for JJ at the WI Ducks! calling him up today and taking everything back.)
spoke to Krystal from eau claire and Vanjah last night... got plans for next weekend more solidified. only need help in one place. madison, could someone put up 3 minnisconsinites for next thursday night? we're driving to detroit and want to break up the drive just a little... and see y'all... and give jenna her sweats back. (c: I LOVE YOU!
so, foreign film night was last night... wouldn't know it, though. no one came, which really doesn't bother me much... Vanj and i had a wonderful story sharing session.... i learned a lot about him (and some of you) last night.
found a travelling buddy for one trip. hopefully. only 3 more to go.
its finally gotten warm up here. yesterday, it had to be in the 70s, which for most of you is rediculous to be calling warm, but c'mon... we're in minnesota here. first thunderstorm of the year was last night. for some reason, bad weather, but thunderstorms especially, make me feel safe. must be the warmth of my home, coziness of being wrapped in a blanket, and the noises that are taking place outside. i always have to sleep through a thunderstorm with my window open.. its like a lullaby. i think that no matter where i am, storms will be my safety. its crazy. last summer, i spent some time in florida with a friend... on the day i was supposed to fly out, hurricane charlie crashed onto the shores. instead of being cooped up in the house, we were outside taking pictures and posing in the storm... seeing how long we could last outside before the wind would knock us over... so, today, although much colder than yesterday, i'm in a very calm and happy mood. this also probably has to do with the fact that i'm in sweats and don't have to go to any classes today except night class.. man do i love faculty forum day!it is once again Foreign Film Night. its Nabi's week...Life Is Beautiful. i'll let you know how it goes.finally figured out how vanjah and i are going to get to detroit next weekend for LTM. roadtrippin' baby! and in advance, i'm going to give a thanks to MI... colleen, i love you twin! i'm getting really antsy to get there and figure some things out. one week.these are some of the lyrics of one of my favorite songs (Konstantine by Something Corporate). this is kinda how i feel both myself and my family see our current relationship.I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you and my big dreams
And you tell me
That it's over
But i can't stand here in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, could you let me go
and you don't want to be here in the future
So you saythe present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me
i can't wait to live my life... but, i'm so afraid of hurting my family. its a constant wrestling that i have.. who to hurt. me or all of them. maybe if i expose them to something bigger and new, they'll start to understand... maybe there will have to be a trip for me, mom and grace this summer to that apple of a town. maybe that will start the compromisenow to narrow down where i'm going to be going this summer.. deffo the UK et al trip.. i owe that one to myself. but what else..? and who's gonna come with?......
porky creek lodge
creepy townie george
Originally uploaded by conniemg6. i was just going through some of the pictures i downloaded a while ago and found this one.
awww, look at how cute holly and matt are.....
now look behind them. i know you can't miss him, he's wearing a blaze orange hat. a blaze orange hat that i'm proud to say used to be mine. it has my name on it and everything... well, the name of my family's hunting cabin, at least. and a deer head and a grouse flying. i can't believe how many people fought over that thing at wsc this year.
i spoke to george the other day. he told me that he wore that hat the other day... in new york. ran into one of his friends who inquired about the hat... and what kind of redneck hicks he's been hanging out with ......... ME!
this picuture always makes me smile because of how creepy george looks. hehe
won't you take me to ... funky town?
apparently, i have a new nickname...thanks to kait. and given the source, you must excuse the oddness of it. so, you may now refer to me as pretty much anything you'd like INCLUDING: Huti the super wonder.i am yet again procrastinating until the bitter end. i have a financial paper due today at 5pm... only 5 pages long, and i already wrote it last semester...for the same class... with the same prof. yet i should revamp it a bit. meh, when you get an A on a paper, is there really much you could revamp? plus, i really don't want to. but i should at least finish typing it and reprint the sources that somehow got some sort of purple liquid spilled on them since last semester. yeah, that would probably be good.sometimes a week can seem like an eternity when it comes to talking to people. i spoke to my older brother last friday. didn't speak to him until this past friday. seemed like an eternity. which is strange because even though we live in the same town, we go months without talking (which pisses my parents off immensely). most of the time its 'cuz he's an asshole, plain and simply, but i really should make more of an effort .. seeing as though i'm not going to be in the country for very much longer. i don't really talk to much of my family anymore, but consider us very tight none the less. strange.i missed my alarm this morning. must've turned it off. but didn't mind much because of the dream i was having. an original... it was rather interesting and entertaining, which is why, i'm guessing, that i turned my alarm off. i'm constantly thinking about my travels this summer. the one good thing that is a result of the university telling me i can't graduate in august. the torture of returning for a full semester in the fall will be eased with the sweet memories of plane rides and new places (and old ones too... new york city IS going to be a reality!). i have this giddy feeling inside me right now.i'm still procrastinating... damn it!
the world in a nutshell - what do you think?
i was just shuffling through a bunch of my old aiesec papers. i found a hard copy of the annual report that i worked on last fall, some old YES conference facilitator notes, RoKS notes and some ice breakers from when i was the A-Team Leader... thought that it would be fun to see how many people know the answers to this one:
-if the entire world were redefined as a village of 100 people, with all existing human ratios remaining the same, how would the 100 people be divided? (if you have the answers to this, please don't answer). HOW MANY DO YOU THINK....
1. are asians?
2. are africans?
3. are europeans?
4. are from the western hemisphere?
5. are male?
6 are female?
7. are non-white people?
8. are christian?
9. are wealthy?
10. are wealthy and live in the U.S.?
11. can read?
12. have a college education?
13. suffer from malnutrition?
14. live in sub-standard housing?
15. own a computer?
chino latinos
chino latinos
Originally uploaded by conniemg6.last month, Kristi and we st. cloud girls met up at chino latinos for a night. had some amazing food and marvelous conversation about life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness... and aiesec. it was a good kind of night, like the kind i hope to have for the rest of my life with friends that i don't see often enough.
good things come to good, respectable people. it seems like with some people, i have the same conversation over and over again. we talk about the same thing, come to the same conclusion, yet we have it again and again.i've been in the computer lab for about an hour now. thinking. these words are all i've done since i got here. just thinking. and being the type of person that i am, this kind of thinking is dangerous.
scandal
my boss is a liar....... grrr. the essence of all things evil. I HOPE YOU ARE READING THIS, BRIAN! (i secretly love you.........maybe)
i have a confession... something that i did last night (its morally wrong, but won't be offended if you steal the idea.) so here goes:
i had a mary kay party last night. the idea of these parties (in a college student's mind at least) is a free make-over (oo,fun!). and because my friends and i had fun new looks about us, we didn't want the look to be wasted by just staying in. so my roommate comes up with this grand idea that it would be fun to pretend that we're all on a bachlorette party.........so we could drink for free all night. we grabbed an old white t-shirt for her (the bride) and the rest of us dressed up for down town. on her white shirt we wrote "BRIDE to be..." on the back and "SUCK FOR A BUCK" on the front. stopped at walmart to grab a garder, veil and a styrofoam bouquet thing, a few bags of blow pops and headed to the bar to ..well, to rip people off. it was such a townie thing to do, but oodles of fun. it was actually my roommate's birthday 2 days before, so when we ran into friends, we let them in on the secret, but for the most part, people believed us...and bought suckers. after paying everyone in our "wedding party" back for their contributions, i (the maid of honor) counted the money that i had stuffed in my pocket, bought the whole "wedding party" a round of drinks and ended up going home with $10. so, the night was a success... had oodles of fun, lied to people we knew and people we didn't know, took pictures of my roommate making out with all sorts of men (even married ones.... for extra dollars, of course), drank for free all night and went home with a little extra dough. we have decided that instead of going out on our birthdays as "birthday girls", we're going to pretend to be "brides to be". so, i guess i'm up in a little over a month. haha.........ok, so we're sick and demented. but try it, you'll have fun too.
chris (my favorite travelling buddy) the brit and i are currently in an all out war. BRING IT ON, YOU BLOODY FOREIGNER!! this is why.
