closing time, open all the doors and let you out into the world
this is what my horoscope read this morning....Taurus
Changed home situations recently? Considering it, even as you read this? You want things to stay the same, but you're itching for a change. Well, why fight it? Start considering your options -- your realistic options. Bet you've got more than you've considered.
now if you know me at all, you know that i get these emailed to me for fun, just to "see if they match up with my life". and this one just happens to.
yesterday i moved back in with my parents. well, i slept in a bed at my parents' house... my stuff is still moved into theirs and my cars. i told myself that i'd be able to fit my life into 2 suitcases, a carry on and a personal bag. somehow that didn't happen like i would've liked it to.
my parents run a business from their home (if you ever need an apartment in medford, wisconsin, let me know... i've got connections). so, being here puts you in danger of coming in contact with their tennants. i think i scared the shit out of a little old man this morning. red and white zuba pants, wisconsin hoodie, greasy hair in a pony on the top of my head, glasses, and red eyes from tears i'd just cried.
its not that i don't enjoy this town. no matter how much i've bashed it in the past, to be honest, i think i'm one of the lucky few to have been raised on the morals of a small midwestern town. they're much different than a lot of places. throughout my time away, i've really learned to appreciate this place. and although its not my ideal place to be right at this moment, i think that it'll be good for me to be reminded of where i originated. ..... where it is that shaped the girl that SO many envy.......
but it really does bring me to tears knowing that a very large part of me has ceased... in fact two have. the college life that i grew comfortable with is now gone. i live here, my keys were left there. and this is the first conference that i will not be attending in 2.5 years. it was almost 3 years of my life that aiesec made up. and i'm letting go of possibly the best thing that ever happened to me (thus far). its saying goodbye before i think i'm ready. and the hardest part is that i don't have anyone around that even remotely understands.
a few teary nights are ahead... i wish there was some way to have closure. and i know that @ will never really be gone.... as long as there are calls from scotland, emails from new zealand and IMs from morocco. but there was no finale to my working with it as a student volunteer. that's the biggest reason for my heavy heart.
posted by Connie Mia @ 8:43 AM
3 Comments:
There doesn't have to be an end ... But know that you have touched the lives of people miles away. From New York to Sydney and back, and though there is no huge way to say thank you, your heavy heart is not for nothing. Thank you ... thank you ... thank you
I say you just come crash the parties...come on, you know you want to drive to Dayton...
diga-me quem canta esta música.
Eu gosto dela.
Obrigado!
(say me who sing this music. I like most of it.)
Thanks!
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